Well, I for one can say I am in your same boat and even in the beginning stages. My peak at one point was 336 :( Right now I'm at 309 (I was 308, but period happened...then a binge yesterday and I don't wanna see the scale right now) BUT!!! Point is...as one user noted, track EVERYTHING you consume on spark people food-wise and then track all your fitness on spark people as well. Psychologically, if you see you consumed some junk food and get a reality check of what's calorically going into your body...it's eye-opening enough to not want to put it in your mouth again next time. Also...the fitness minutes/calories burned added...is also going to be psychologically appealing to you in your mind when you're entering that in.
I give you props. I've suffered with heavy social anxiety since my early-mid teens and now I'm in my early 20's. I went to a gym in 2010, but it was a 24 hr one so I could ONLY go if I knew it was super late and nobody else would be in there because I was so ashamed of how fat and disgusting I felt exercising in front of all the....."more fit" people. I always felt judged (but it's part of the disorder). Heck, I still feel judged when all the girls wanna order food at work and invite me to order out with them and turn them down. I automatically assume "Why wouldn't she wanna eat with us? She's fat, we know she eats garbage food", ya know? I know it probably sounds ridiculous to a lot of you, but that IS what goes through your head. I even feel judged if we have luncheons at work since I started the diet and I only eat fruits/veggies without dip and small slices of meat with no bread.
I can tell you, Nancy...the first three weeks of the diet are....H-E-Double Hockey Sticks. Especially if you love your salts as much as I do. I started my diet April 1st...and now that I'm 5 weeks in (6 on monday)....it's so much easier to pass on the goodies. And FYI....a GREAT tool lol...is the I Can't Believe It's Not Butter spray...INVEST IN IT - it's WORTH it! Because of my diet-disgust of frozen lean cuisines and smart ones, unless they're lean pockets and I need something quick and on-the-go...I will avoid frozen meals altogether because of high sodium content (which will equal water retention and leave weight on). For dinners, they usually consist of a vegetable (my favorites are cauliflower, green beans, corn, and broccoli), but most veggies are great for you...and I boil them to soft-goodness...then I like to bake a chicken breast...and for flavor...DIP ONLY...in bbq sauce. I'll even have a baked potato tossed in the oven with it too. After microwaving it for 4 min after it's washed and dried....spray the 0 calorie butter on both sides of it....toss it in for 1/2 hr at 400 degrees...take it out, turn it over, respray....put the chicken in....cook for another 25 minutes and your dinner will not only be low calorie, low-sodium and low fat, but it will fill you up too.
It's the adjustment period that was hardest for me. Lol now I walk past women in the office and think "Aww....coffee? How can you waste calories on a DRINK?" LOL! It doesn't bother me any though cuz they're not MY wasted calories. Before and after I started my weight-loss journey 9.5x out of 10 I'd drink water strictly anyway.
Another hinderance of mine is I'm a complete dunce at cooking (and also a bit of a germaphobe). I contantly worry I'm not gonna cook meat correctly and I'll get salmonella or something (You all think I'm nuts if you've read this far, it's fine. You're not the first or last) lol...I just need to learn to cook different kinds of lean meats because my variety of two low carlorie sides is enough variety for me. Also....heck, if ya feel like "splurging" a whole can of green beans after they're strained and rinsed of all that salt from the can is only 60 or 70 calories for the whole thing if you're feelin starved!
Anyway, if you want, I'd be happy to have you add me as a friend too since we have...relatable weight ranges and I'd like to keep in touch on your progress, Nancy.
First Goal Weight: 260lbs
***Reached October 17, 2013
Second Goal Weight: 200lbs
Third Goal Weight: 160lbs
Much Love & Happiness To You On Your Journey.
| Pounds lost: 60.0