I definitely understand the feeling of helplessness and the daunting task of taking on a large weight loss. I do have to say though that even my wake up call wasn't enough for me to make a change right then and there (it's on my sparkpage if you want to read it) I also read about people who lost the weight in about 1 year's time, or maybe 2 if they had an especially large amount of weight to lose. Personally, I have been working on this for about 3 years (I took 2012 off to just 'enjoy the view' and celebrate the fact that I had gotten as far as I did).
I'm motivated now by the fact that my body can do so much more than it could when I was more overweight. I actually enjoy exercising-especially jogging! That's my new fun thing. I still struggle with food, and I actually believe that the fact that I started seeing a counselor helped me lose the majority of this weight. I was using food to cope-and I still catch myself doing it (for example right now I'm almost done with this term, and the stress is definitely getting to me!)
Some people just get sick of it, and they change their lives, and while they still experience difficulties in between, for the most part, they experience steady loss to their goal weight. I personally did not go that way. It's been a crazy roller coaster ride of finding out what works for me and what doesn't. It also consisted of feeling like I wanted to give up, then giving up for about a week, and then getting mad at myself and jumping back on it. Everyone's story is as unique as the individual.
Don't feel like you're not normal because something hasn't "clicked" within you. Everyone's motivations, support systems, and rewards are different. I personally am not motivated by wearing cute clothes because even if I could shop in any store I wanted to, my finances wouldn't allow me to shop in any store I wanted. Your own motivation has to come from within you.
Don't ever let anyone else tell you who you can be
| current weight: 281.0