hi :) my name is kim. i was on here back in 2010 and then have been back on and off since then. i lost a lot of weight on spark people and slowly went back to my old habits (darn junk food! & emotional eating) - and have gained some weight back. i am here for once and for all. i am not going to give up on myself this time. this time is different.
i am totally convinced that my husband is trying to mess me up ... but you know... he doesn't make me eat anything... i am responsible for everything that i eat. i feel just frustrated watching him buy the things that i love and cannot really eat if i'm tracking my calories. just today - we were in tim hortons & he bought a pretzel bagel and a tea biscuit ... in hopes that i would eat the pretzel bagel. really? i didn't ask him to buy me anything.... i guess he just "assumed" that i would eat it. oh, and the other day - he brought home something from dairy queen... i looked on the nutritional label - and it said "1130 calories". omg! how can i *not* feel like he is trying to get me to go further up the scale when he does things like that? :(
i used to weigh 405 pounds. i was not a happy person. in 2010 - when i logged on here - i decided to ditch the junk food, diet pop/soda and go to the gym. i got my weight down to 250 pounds. then, i had some stuff happen & being an emotional eater - i turned back to my good ol' friends ... cupcakes and cookies. right now i'm at 303 pounds. i don't *want* to go back up to 405 pounds. i just feel like if i started eating the things my husband buys me (as treats/surprises) i would see 405 pounds on my scale in no time. it is so frustrating and i have told him how i feel about it. i just don't understand why he does what he does. :(
well, i have said a lot.. if you want to drop by my page ... feel free ;) and i am looking for online support... because clearly i don't have very much of a support system at home at all. i will return the favor and be your support line too (if you need one!).
thanks for reading my bio/intro :) have a nice night (or day) :)
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