I spend a lot of time alone, my husband works about 10 hours nearly 7 days a week...We moved here to Tennessee from The Beautiful Pacific North West- from Renton, Washington State, with a 4 hour Drive to the British Columbia, Canadian border, It was very hard to find work due to the recession's lowest point, so my sister, and nieces and all the great nieces and nephews, My Mother also was here and she painted a picture of East Tennessee as being heaven on earth, her so called friend had a house that needed a lot of repairs so instead of rent my husband who honestly can fix anything and everything ..so ok, then we were told where this house was had no water bill I guess it was a well..so we thought we were struggling in Washington State---but let me tell you that my husband and I, we learned the very hard way that if it sounds too good to be true--thats because it is not true. But its sooooooooooooo insanely hot here for almost 10 months a cold front means its under 95 degrees- no offense to anyone that lives in East Tennessee- But, it is not a very Friendly place, especially if your from "The North" and this 1st year here we struggled worse then while in Washington State- the house we were promised was a condemned with large poster size notices warning that it was used a a Meth-lab, so here we were no place to live no job it was horrible. We are now here a little over a year and I still have not met any one I could trust nor call friend. So I was having horrible scary Panic Attacks- then due to East-TN being the highest in the country for Prescription Pills abuse- I had to fight and beg for the medication I needed. So I am trying to keep this shirt- but I also am extremely heat intolerant- even as a child could walk into a snow-storm in Jeans & a T-shirt I used to hide the coats I was forced to wear. So for 10 months the only time I leave the house is for Dr. appointments. other than that I an here in my house 24-7 only opening the door to let the dogs out and in. So and I am sorry for writing a novel here..:) So here I am -its a very Depressing and very hard to think and act Positive and self-motivate.
So hugs to all - Look forward to getting to know every one and exchange motivation and friendship - so I will "publish the Novel" and get some sleep. Hugs to everyone.
I Must learn to control my depression, instead of allowing it to control me!!! I want to spend lots of time here in Spark-pages/people etc.. I am tired of being lonely, I want to make real friends.
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