I am almost 55 years old and 70 pounds over my ideal weight. I currently weigh 260 pounds. Just last year I was able to get down to 242…but put it all back on again. This has been my life for the past 10 years….drop 20-25 pounds and then it comes back on again.
I suffer from lower back pain that has now produced a bulging disk…I hurt my right knee on the job in 2007 - which resulted in me being retired on disability from my job. It has affected my hips and feet to the point where just walking over about 15 minutes creates a lot of pain. I can to sit for longer than about 20-30 minutes without extreme discomfort. Combined…this means it is almost impossible for me to find any type of other employment…I go to the gym to walk in the pool for about 1/2 mile - then into the hot tub to allow the jets to try and do a job on my lower back. I try to go 3-4 times per week…but if I cannot go to the gym, then I try to walk for about 1 mile…it takes me over 30 minutes to do that.
I've tried Weight Watchers Online…it worked for awhile…then the weight comes back on. I know it is all my fault. I get depressed sometimes when I think about how far I have fallen. My family is concerned…they have expressed their concern about my weight and have tried to help…but I have so conditioned myself over the years that "I can do it on my own" that I find their offers to help…well, it makes me feel even worse…like I'm a failure or something.
I wear loose suits and dark clothing to try and "hide" the weight issues…but when I look at pictures of myself, I can still see the fat man inside.
Then, I usually get mad at myself and "go on a crazy diet" to loose the weight…and after a few days…binge again.
I thought about having the lap band surgery, but my family thinks it is too dangerous and they say they do not understand why I just cannot loose the weight myself. They tell me if I have the surgery I will not be able to enjoy family dinners and things because I will not be able to eat what I want…
I am coming to this website because I, through the research I have done online, I heard it was pretty successful and that there was a great online community to offer support. I guess that is what sold me to try this program…I don't know if it will work - but I am willing to try it for a month or so to see.
At this point, I really do not know if I can do anything about my weight or not. (Inside, I KNOW it is up to me…but I just don't know if I even care anymore). I tell my wife all the time, when she brings up, "Don't eat that, it will make you fat…don't eat that, it will make you fat…don't eat that, it will make you fat…" I sometimes tell her, "I give up…I just don't care anymore."
Look at where it has gotten me...
If I can do it - so can you!
| current weight: 258.0