Hi Everyone! Where should I begin...
I guess I should start with how I gained weight in the first place. For almost a decade I suffered from clinical depression. Some days were better than others. When the economy took a turn for the worst, I was laid off. I spent three years either unemployed or underemployed. I lost touch with my friends, and almost never left my house. My depression became so severe that I rarely got out of bed, and I ate a lot. I gained over 40 pounds during that time.
Luckily, I found a job a year and three months ago. The first 8 or 9 months were difficult, because during my unemployment, I developed agoraphobia and social anxiety. I had panic attacks once or twice a day. Two months into my employment, I decided to reclaim my life (and my figure) by joining Weight Watchers.
It started off great. I lost 5 lbs in 4 weeks. Things were looking up. Then my ob/gyn decided that I should try Depo Provera for my dibilitating menstrual cramps. I gained 12 lbs in 2 months. If I wasn't on WW, I'm positive I would have gained twice that much. I was so devastated.
I decided to quit the Depo, so that I could start losing again. Since August, I have lost 3 lbs. I felt incredibly defeated, and I didn't know what I was doing wrong. I work out every morning before work, track EVERYTHING, and still nothing.
After finally having enough, I joined SparkPeople a couple of days ago, just to see what might be wrong with my WW plan. After tracking an average day's worth of meal, I saw that I was consuming 950 to 1000 calories a day. No wonder I was so hungry and moody all the time!
I'm pretty sure the issue is that WW only takes into account heigh and weight. I'm 5'2", and weigh a lot, so WW thought I was very obese. They didn't take into account that I have a ton of muscle mass. I'm not obese; just overweight.
I allowed myself to be downright p*ssed off for a few minutes. After that, I got down to business. I've been w/ SparkPeople for two days, and I've lost 3 lbs. I'm assuming it's water that I was holding onto, but it's very motivating.
Even better, I'M NOT HUNGRY ANYMORE!!! I feel satisfied and optimistic.
Wow, this post is longer than I expected it to be. Thanks for reading this, and I look forward to hearing from this wonderful community!
Bye for now :)
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