Welcome to Sparkpeople
and well done on posting after lurking for so long. That right there is what we call a huge step in the right direction
I really admire your honesty, it can be hard to find the time to log in and post and lets face it, updating the tracker isn't the most exciting thing in the world especially when you have had a bad day. But it does help, really it does. Try and find even 5-10 mins at the end of your day where you can log in a post, make it as much a part of your daily routine as brushing your teeth. The more you do it, the more you reinforce the habit and the easier it will be. Even if you can't log on try and keep a physical food diary so you can see patterns in your eating.
Depression is something I personally understand very well
it can be a huge obstacle to healthy living. One thing you might find helpful is one of the teams for fellow Sparkers with depression, its great to have a community of people who understand your struggles and who can give you support when you need it. You can find teams by doing a search via the Community button up top.
You only need to be overweight your entire life if you let that happen, you have the power to change things, time to take that power back.
Best of luck, you know we are all here if you need help and support.
| current weight: 173.5