HI there! It sounds like you need to take some time for yourself. It sounds like you've spent quite a bit of energy on other people (not a bad thing) but it's time to focus on YOU. Take a little bit of time each day and do something you want to do, regardless of what others think or say. It might be hard at first, but it will get easier as you do it. Keep hanging in there!!
I'm sorry you are in such a tough place right now. You need a big dose of hope! I was very ill myself a few years back and well over 350 pounds. That was then. Now I'm down over 100 pounds and feeling much better about life as well as feeling better PHYSICALLY.
No big tricks... I just kept at it, small changes day by day. Try joining a few teams for some support.
Best of luck!
Suzanne - Central Kentucky Beyond the Scale Admin BTS - Pink Pirate Captain BLC14-23 Sapphire - Co-Cap, Captain & Admin
Hi and Welcome to SP...I am so sorry that things are going so badly at this time...
Sparkspeople is a wonderful place...I would highly suggest becoming part of a sparkteam...
Go to the top of the page and put your cursor over the box that says "community" then click on "sparkteams" in the drop down box. Then there you can search for teams with like interests, goals or things you are going through.
I hope that helps!
~~Hi I'm Tammy~~ ~~The Colossal Lion~~ Your Superpower is Demonic Your Weakness is Anger Your Weapon is Your Golden Lasso Your Mode of Transportation is Segway ~~Pop Free for 3 years~~ 300's--GONE 11/6/2013 299--Small Goal--HIT IT 11/6/2013 290's 280's 270's 260's 250's --FIRST BIG GOAL!
current weight: 316.8
Fitness Minutes: (70,869)
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I haven't had a chance to read through exactly what Spark is yet. I know I need support and hope to find some people here. I am 48 years old. I am a high-tech pediatric nurse. I have two biological children 27 and 26. I have twin girls I adopted at birth that are now 17. One grandchild and another one on the way anyday now. I have been married 5 times...and each marriage seems to be worse then the last. I have a big heart and have spent my entire life caring for others. Now I feel empty and hurt. So much time and energy spent to give to others and I don't even think they care. I have centered my whole life around what everybody else needed and when I need something, noone is there for me. I currently weigh 217# on my 5'3'' body. I had a hysterectomy 6 years ago and have gained nearly 50 lbs. since then. I also started smoking then...really at 42 years old. My hormones are a mess. I am moody and depressed. All my joints ache. I have a controlling, jealous and needy husband that I don't trust since he cheated on me 2 years ago. My whole family hates him and doesn't want him around. I looked into bioidentical hormone replacement and hope that it may help. Honestly it's the only selfish thing I've done in years. I did start taking some vitamins while I wait for my bloodwork and urine to come back. My appointment isn't until November 6th. My life seems to be a downward spiral right now and I need help to change direction. I want to be the bubbly outgoing person I used to be. I was always a very attractive fun person and I don't even recognize myself anymore. Everything hurts me physically, emotionally and even my spirit in beaten. So if anyone want to share some encouragement pleeeeease post. Thank-you.
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