Luci, welcome to SP.
I'm very sorry for your loss. I don't know if it would help you to know, but I work with infants and kids, so I see a lot of families. Many moms weighing in the 200s are having babies, many of them healthy. I see it every day. So you might be being a little hard on yourself. I had a miscarriage myself, and have come to accept that some little ones aren't healthy enough to survive. Please be kind to yourself.
Being on SP is a great thing to do for yourself, and there are many great people here to support you as you take off on your good-health journey!
Some things that are helpful to many new members: Get on a Spark Team or two that match your interests. You will find it easy to get acquainted with folks on Spark Teams. For instance, you can select a Team of Sparkers in your city, or Sparkers who follow a particular food plan (vegetarians, low carb, etc.), Sparkers with a particular health concern, or Sparkers who share your hobbies. Another option is to set up your Spark Page and start blogging. Some folks use the Community Journals. Post a lot on the message boards, especially if you have successes or challenges. You'll soon find that you're connecting with many nice folks here.
You can't wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club.
-- J. London
Started DASH Diet Weight Loss Solution (book by Marla Heller, M.S., R.D.) on 3/8/2013.
Lost 40 lbs total and reached goal weight on 10/23/2013.
| current weight: 0.5 over