Just found out about SparkPeople and I'm so glad I did! I've been struggling with my weight most of my life. My parents were both extremely overweight when I was growing up and they really were not good examples for taking care of your health - they both smoked and filled our house with all the wrong foods (processed, junk food, etc.) We rarely ate vegetables - and Mom was a horrible cook so we either ate meals already prepared or ate out at places like McDonalds or Howard Johnsons (yes, way back when they had a diner near us) where they had all you can eat fried clams/shrimp once a week - we were regulars.
We never exercised as a family - or even individually - except to play baseball from time to time. My parents never joined a gym or bought any type of sports or exercise equipment. So, it has been a hurdle - especially to realize that I was doing something wrong. When you are raised that way - that's all you know. Mom especially struggled with her weight - Dad was tall, so he just accepted it - but Mom would do this diet or another only to lose any goals she originally met - and actually put on more weight. I think Mom was an emotional eater - and so am I. Fortunately - I keep most junk far away from me, but from time to time I do succumb to the temptation. When I live healthfully though - exercise and eat right most of the time - the temptation isn't there (I'm not about to climb on a treadmill and work that off!)
Fortunately for me - somehow I have always been the smallest member of my family - but that doesn't give me any comfort - I want to be truly healthy. Fortunately for me, I met and married a man who is dedicated to more healthy living. You would think I would have climbed on the bandwagon years ago - but I just never really took any advice and usually did the opposite of what I was told. Thank goodness I finally woke up - and now his message is the same as mine - and we are both dedicated to living healthier lives - as a family.
I am fortunate to be the mom of 4 beautiful kids - and that really allowed more weight to creep in. About three years ago was when I woke up - and I finally started dedicating myself to working out and eating healthier. I lost over 40 pounds - so I know I can do it. After that, I became pregnant again - and gained the weight back. It is not because of the pregnancy - but because with homeschooling my older 3 kids, having a baby and managing the household - I didn't have the time to make the healthier foods I needed. When we were out and about - we would stop for fast food because it was fast and easy. I knew it was a huge mistake - but I told myself I didn't have a choice.
Right now I am at a place where I can finally start to nurture my own needs - as well as inspire my own children and educate them about living a healthier life. In the kitchen - the kids and I are always creating recipes that are healthier than the original versions. The kids love playing detective that way - and they love love love healthy food.
Our biggest struggle is with time - and that's why I'm here. I'm trying to put my struggle into words - and trying to motivate myself to return to that healthier me. I homeschool the 3 older kiddos - and it is quite time consuming. My youngest is a boy who is constantly active - getting into things while we try to get done with our work. He truly is our sunshine in our day - flashing that smile while being truly naughty sometimes.
Anyway - way back when I lost the weight - I was highly motivated. Not so much for dreams of fitting into any bikini - but to be more to be healthy, to feel stronger, to do things I have never been able to do before. At first it was a struggle - but at some point I actually became addicted to being healthy. I strove to cook healthier foods - and I longed for that sore feeling after a good workout. I not only liked how I looked - but how I felt - mentally and physically.
So, right now my struggle is to get back to that feeling. Right now it is hard because I am at the beginning and it feels like more of a chore to get moving. However, I know that feeling will return - I just have to be patient and persevere. So, that is my journey.
Thanks for listening,
* * Sumay * *
5% Summer Challenge
| current weight: 182.0