There's a difference between being obsessive and being meticulous. You're the only one who really knows how this makes you feel. (And it's only what YOU feel that matters. BF has no say in what and how you eat.) If tracking truly causes you intense anxiety and fear, and if it takes longer and longer instead of getting easier after the first few weeks, then it might not be right for you.
But sometimes people get called (or call themselves) obsessive when they're really just being careful. Think about it like you think about money. If you spend half an hour a night balancing your checkbook, planning your expenses for the next few days, and checking to see whether you're on track with the monthly budget, people don't call you obsessive. They call you responsible and smart. And what's more important, your money or your health? Following a budget takes the fun out of shopping and going out with friends, but it's something you eventually have to come to terms with, especially if you have overspent in the past. Being overweight and being in debt are a lot alike- in both cases, you have to sacrifice some things now to make up for having too much in the past, so that you'll be able to have a comfortable future.
To make it easier, you don't really have to make all your nutrients balanced every day. Start by just staying in your calorie range and getting rid of obvious junk food. Notice your nutrient values, but don't worry about them; just use that as your guideline for what to eat if you're low on calories or what to skip if your planned calories for the next day come out too high. Maybe count vegetable servings instead of worrying about specific vitamins, for example. Once you've been meeting calorie and veggie targets for several weeks, *then* you can decide whether you need to be more specific about nutrient balances.
| current weight: 132.0