Most of the weight that I gained was due to a series of illnesses that started when I had a brain aneurysm nine years ago. When I finally got treatment for the most severe of those issues (which took a very long time to diagnose) everything got better because I was finally well enough to get out of bed and participate in life again. The weight loss was really secondary to other things in my life that made me feel better.
Overall though, the biggest thing that has happened is that other people treat me differently. People are nicer to me. Strangers are friendlier. I think that I am perceived as more professional now that I can dress better. Men are more interested. It's much easier to find partners when I go to dance events. People who were casual friends now want to be closer to me.
Honestly, it has kind of shaken my faith in humanity. I didn't realize just how much people were judging me for how I looked instead of for my intelligence, accomplishments or heart. It has really been pretty disappointing.
I think that so much focus on my body has also made me more vain. I don't like having to put so much time and energy into something so shallow, but it is unavoidable if I want to be healthy.
The experience has also made me resentful. Because of my metabolic problems, I have to work so much harder than most people to lose and maintain weight. Mostly I accept this and do what I have to do, but deep down I am very angry.
I certainly look better on the outside, but I do not feel any better or any more comfortable in my skin.
Being fat never stopped me from doing anything that I wanted to do, nor did it have much effect on my self confidence.
Edited by: AZULVIOLETA6 at: 7/16/2013 (13:05)
Dances: salsa (standard/LA), casino, rueda de casino, cumbia Colombiana, bachata, mambo, cha-cha-chá, merengue, reggaetón.
Currently learning: Mexican cumbia, danzón, Cuban rumba
Dances to Learn in the future: flamenco, tango Argentino, samba, belly dancing, bhangra, ballroom rumba
| current weight: 213.0