GREAT post. I'm sorry I missed it.
which doesn't really make any sense because I CHOSE to stay with my kids' father. He missed a lot of time with our kids because of...let me just say...thinking with his penis instead of his brain. As a result, he had kids with other women. I chose to stay. He has since grown up quite a bit, and I know he already feels like a turd for not being faithful. Once in a while, I think about the past, and I need to not do that if we're going to move forward. Love covers a multitude of offenses. Love keeps no record of wrongs. Love believes all things, hope all things...etc. etc. He asked God to forgive him, and me, and if I really forgive him, I need to bury that stuff, and that resentment, and not dig it up...and/or bury it quickly if the accuser of the brethren digs it up.
Also resentment towards my father, who passed away in February of 2011. I still find myself feeling resentful for him not taking better care of himself. I know he went to heaven. I know he probably had a really good cry when he realized he could have lived longer if he had chosen to be wiser. I have to let that go. What good is it going to do?
Resentment towards the baby mama in particular who KNEW that my (now our) kids' father was in a relationship with me, and yet she pursued him. Yes, it takes two, but...I think of Proverbs 5 and Proverbs 7. The seductress. That's her, IMHO. She's had a rough life, too, and I need to be praying for her salvation, and praying for my own attitudes to change. I could go on about her, but all that's going to do is feed the resentment that I feel.
2) Anxiety. I am 35 years old and I still do not have nor have I ever had my driver's license. I feel physically sick when it is mentioned that I need to get out and drive. I have my permit. I have taken my 5 hour THREE times now. It expires this fall, and I really do want to get my license this summer. I really do, but I am scared.
MamiSheli53 is my MOM!!!
Aim for progress...NOT perfection.
Starting weight July 2012: 310
(dates of accomplishment for the following to come)
GW1: 280 passed 2/8/13-278!
I can do ALLLLLL things through Christ who strengthens me.
"It's a long, hard climb-but I'm gonna get there."
"If you stay focused on the past, you will never be able to see what lies ahead."
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