I just got off the phone with my Student Advisor, who is worried about because of my lack of progress, especially in one of my two classes. We talked for a very long time. One of the things we discussed is the possibility of me suffering with Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), also known as "the winter blues." I have never noticed it before, but this year has been pretty hard on me. When I would think about school, I would clam up entirely. I had to bribe myself (with chocolate) to sit down and focus for 10 or 20 minutes. Many times, I could only get myself to do that once a day. Then one day, I was home from work and went outside with the dog. It was a beautiful, sunny day and it was literally like someone flipped a switch in my head. My habits did not change, but my attitude did. I have not had to bribe myself with chocolate even once since then, I am much less discouraged (filled with dread would be a better way to say it) about my schoolwork, and I can focus long enough to finish an assignment without being gripped by a sense of overwhelm, fatigue, frustration, and despair.
She suggested I talk with my doctor, which I am sure I will the next time I see him, but in the meantime, I realize it will be good for me to make sure I open the blinds much more often during the day when I am home. When I am at work, I need to take the time to get away from my desk once or twice to get outside for a breath of fresh air and a dose of happy-pill sunshine. Fortunately, this is the time of year that makes it easy to get outside, but now I realize I need to make this a special effort, especially during this time of my life when my stress is unusually high.
"By being yourself, you put something wonderful in the world that was not there before."
"Keep moving forward."
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