I've had years to think long and hard about any cosmetic procedures I would need after losing weight. In the beginning I was on the fence about it. All I really cared about was ridding my poor body of the excess 150+ lbs I was carrying around. My main concern/goal was becoming healthy so I could live a long and happy life. I'd be lying if I said vanity was never a concern of mine, but it wasn't my main focus once I began my weight loss journey. The thought of having all of these risky procedures performed and going through such long recovery periods and thinking of all of the potential complications that could arise turned me off from them. And for a while I was just riding such a high from losing weight for 2 years, that all I could really focus on was feeling proud and accomplished and appreciative of finally becoming a healthy person in a normal weight range.
However I did notice that loose skin was becoming a major issue. And that issue really began to rear it's ugly head the more weight I dropped. I didn't realize that I would still be so unhappy with my body and dare I say miserable at times all because of the loose skin. I'm a little ashamed of the fact that I'm letting something as trivial as my physical appearance overshadow my accomplishments and what I worked so hard for. I try to look at my jiggly saggy parts and stretch marks as a badge of honor from what I've been through, but I can't help but feel ugly because of them. I'm human and I can't help but wish I could have a flatter stomach, and legs that weren't lumpy and didn't have droopy boobs. I get so depressed at times and no matter how many positive affirmations I repeat in my mind, I still cannot change that I genuinely do not like what I see in the mirror (sans clothing)
Bottom line is, cosmetic surgery is a personal choice. If you can love and appreciate the body you have despite your flaws, then that's amazing and I truly admire those who can. If you're someone like me who feels discouraged and unattractive on a nearly daily basis and feels like surgery might improve some of those feelings, then that's ok too. I don't have medical insurance and I certainly don't have the money to pay out of pocket for any of these procedures I'd be needing, but if I can ever find a way to have them done, dammit I will.
"Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live" ~ Dorothy Thompson
"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." ~ Marilyn Monroe
| Pounds lost: 145.0