Thanks for all those that responded. I chose the weight of 120 since that is what I was 14 years ago before my last 3 kids and before age 50. I am not so sure that 6 pounds would really make that much of a difference, but I still feel fat and to me when I look in the mirror I see fat.
All my life I was typically 105-110 pounds. I am 5'3" and small frame. I never really had weight issues until mid 40's
I don't even know if it's possible to get to 120 today. The closest I came was a year ago to 122 and then life got in the way and I put on 4 pounds. In my mind, I think I want to be 120 but can't really seem to get there.
I am sure some may not be able to relate to what I am saying and others maybe can. In my mind, when I was 105-115 I felt skinny, now at 126 I feel fat. Yes I have developed muscles and am grateful for that. My hubby thinks I look buff, ha ha!
I am sure much of this is body image stuff. I know I feel stuck on what I used to look like. In my mind when I was younger I was happy with how I looked, now it's a struggle accepting what I look like today, if that makes sense. This could also be an aging thing. In my mind, I still want to look like I did in my 20's or at least have that weight number.
Thanks for listening to someone that is close to goal, but yet so far. I may not have many pounds to lose anymore, but I still struggle in many ways. We should think this wouldn't be so hard.
I am going to try to carve out a new mental image for myself and at the same time still work towards my goal and see what develops in 2013. I think this is along the lines of celebrating the success I have had and not what I haven't accomplished. Tough task for me!
"Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results. "
| current weight: 122.5