Wow, haven't had this in a while. Hasn't been a good day, a lot on my mind. I fell asleep for like three hours and then my boyfriend wakes me up to get me to bed at 230 am. Needless to say I've been up since. One of the things on my mind is my boyfriend. I love him, I do. I have no reason to complain about him, he's always there for me and he's always doing nice things for me. But for quite a while he's been addicted to a game on his phone. Like a couple months. I am all for doing things on our own and spending time together that way. But we don't live together. We see each other outside of work once a week due to our hectic schedules. So today I get here at 630 pm, he's cleaning or whatever, ask if he needs any help, says no, so I sit down and watch tv and wait for him. We go up, throw potatoes on the grill to go with our main course, he goes and cuts his hair and takes a shower. We eat dinner, him in his chair and me on the couch, and then he gets on his game. I'm sitting there watching tv. After a couple hours, I turn around and go to sleep because all I can think about is I can be at home right now doing the same thing all by myself like I feel like I'm doing with him. Does anyone else have a significant other who is addicted to gaming? How do you cope with it? I feel like I have no reason to complain because he is an awesome boyfriend, and I want him to know he can play his games around me whenever, but the game has been getting in the way a lot lately.
I also live at home. Trying to do this lifestyle change at home is difficult because of my moms attitude. Everything I do at home is scrutinized to the fullest extent, whereas my sister is not. We are both in college, the difference being I am a fourth year college student and she is a freshman. I took my own path for what was right for me and my sister took what my mom wanted for us. I work full time, my sister works 20 hours a week. I get yelled at because things are not clean, when I do a lot of cleaning whereas my sister does not because she works and goes to school. This excuse does not fly for me, but it flys for my sister. Tell my mom I'm doing this, I get an attitude because of it and her saying, "well I've lost ten pounds doing whatever I've done, so it must be working." I get yelled at because of stuff that is not even mine in the pantry, like instant oatmeal that has been there for quite a while that I have not liked or eaten in at least two years. Tell my mom I'm going to the library, "why?" With a snotty attitude. I just wanted to say "because I'm trying to do homework and you and my sister are being inconsiderate blaring music." It is fully known that we all get along better when I am not living there because then my sister can run my moms world and treat her like crap and I don't have to see it. I do feel bad for my mom. She is a single parent and gave up her life to raise us. Besides family, she has only a couple friends. It has to be hard seeing her daughters growing up, and I feel guilty every time I leave the house to do something I want to do knowing she is there by herself. but I can never live up to her expectations.
I just needed to vent, it's been a long day, and I'm not even tired and I have to be up at 9...3 and a half hours from now.
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