Exactly a year ago, a 19-year-old girl gave birth to a child. She was unsure whether she wanted that kid or not but the moment she looked into the child’s eyes, and saw all the possibilities that lay ahead, she knew she had made the right decision.
I was that child, I was that girl. I am my offspring, my parent and my sibling. And today..... I turn one.
And it hasn’t been easy. There were days when I was frustrated with the new me, because it was sucking up a major portion of my time. There was so much to do! New food to be bought, clearing the hazards (junk food) out of the way, there was the emotional turmoil, endless nights of inwardly crying because it wasn’t easy to let go.
But with each day that child morphed into a different being, I started loving the process. I couldn’t wait for the morning to see what else had changed. Watching someone grow physically and emotionally is a blessing in itself. And I realized how blessed I was when I looked in the mirror everyday. I cheered for myself when I decided to go for a run instead of sitting on the couch, and consoled myself when I binged like crazy. I made a gazillion wrong decisions because it was new to me.
I was the one who fell... and I was the one who kissed my ‘owwie’ and said that everything was going to be ok. I hated myself for making stupid decisions but I truly forgave myself because I knew there was no other way around it.
I don’t know what I will turn out to be when I grow up. I didn’t even know I could get this far. But I did.
And you know what? Today... I turn one.
It is my one-year anniversary with SparkPeople and I want to extend a heartfelt gratitude to everyone who is a part of this site. Maybe I would have lost weight without this site, maybe I would have even gained the knowledge. But I couldn’t have gained this wisdom without this site, or the compassion. This site has helped me become a better human being. Love you all!
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