I don't really know how to begin this, so I'm just going to start writing and see what happens....
As you may have known, I was away for a few da... Read more
I write this blog for two reasons; one, to explain my absence and two, to preface the inevitable blogs that will follow.
I will be away for a few d... Read more
I think that shame is a nasty habit. I have been ashamed of who I am, how I am, what I am, my past, my mistakes, my foolishness and just myself in gen... Read more
The word why is a great word, isn’t it? I love “why”? When I was a child my mother would say to do something (or –not- do something) and I’d always sa... Read more
On Monday, I quit. On Tuesday, I quit again. This morning, I started quitting and I won't stop until I fall asleep, and then, I'll be quitting in my d... Read more
I quit judging my self-worth on my weight or the size of my waist.
I quit reading magazine and internet articles like "How to Blast Your Blubber... Read more
So, I went to the movies last night and I, could barely fit in the seat. *sad sigh* Granted, it was the dollar movies, so the seats are smaller, but n... Read more
So, I got accepted into Texas State University!! I got my acceptance to the music school a few weeks ago, but today I found out that I'm accepted by a... Read more
~So, I looked it up and size 14 is the size of the average American woman, it is also (according to what I've read) where the plus sizes start. And th... Read more
I've been doing Atkins for a month now and I've been in induction the whole time, but I don't think I'm in ketosis yet. I haven't cheated on my carbs... Read more
So, my audition is finally over. I may blog about it later, but I just wanted to inform the people who keep up with me that I finally did it! I auditi... Read more
Okay, so I'm still having a hard time getting my calories up, but yesterday I got to around 1600ish, so that's only 200ish off! I promise I'm not star... Read more
I've been tracking my food intake and I've been realizing that I haven't been meeting my daily calorie intake requirement. One day I went as low as 12... Read more
So, guess what! I finally have an audition date for the music school at Texas State: March 3rd! I'm so excited! I've been practicing and immersing mys... Read more
It's DAY THREE! YAY! I am so excited! I did Atkins before and lost 40 pounds in 2 months (I stayed in induction the whole time) but got off of it. I t... Read more
So, I finally finished the letter to my dad, and it was hard, just like I thought it'd be. I told him that it hurt me when he left, and how I tried so... Read more
I just finished eating -way- too many peanut M&M's. I know why - I'm feeling really stressed today. Exceedingly so. I'm not sure why I'm feeling so st... Read more
I was fully intending on going to the San Antonio Spark People rally today, but I confess that I didn't go. I don't know why, but I had a massive pani... Read more
I'm getting cold feet about going to the San Antonio Spark Rally tomorrow. I was all pumped to do something different and be brave and all that, but n... Read more
I've just been thinking a lot today. I think of people in my past often; old teachers, childhood friends, the cop that gave me a ticket two years ago,... Read more
A woman who has strength is valuable.
She can handle trouble and carry heavy burdens.
She holds happiness, love and opinions.
She encourages and... Read more
The good mood streak continues! (I hope I didn't jinx myself haha) I'm trying to soak up all the good vibes/thoughts/whatever-you-call-thems to carry... Read more
So yesturday doing my sit-ups was a NO...Ive bn hurting so bad from doing them that yesturday I could only pull out a good two! Bt I guess since im fe... Read more
You know what I just realized? I don't even actually like food. Of course there are certain foods that I really enjoy, but, on the whole, I'm really j... Read more
So, for some reason I am feeling really positive and empowered today - not sure what it is, but I wish I had it all the time. Anyway! So I have decide... Read more
I'm feeling frustrated. (Big surprise, right?) I'm feeling frustrated because I don't know what to believe. I've done lots of diets, millions (at leas... Read more
Last night I was just in a bad place in my head. It's a long story, but rest assured I won't be giving up, if for no other reason than how hard I have... Read more
Lol not sure if this is the right way to do this b/c idk what this is! Bt I just wnt to thank all of the ppl that have already started supporting me i... Read more
I try to love, to be open, but I can’t. I can’t because, I can’t love myself. You can’t really love someone unless, until you’ve learned to love yours... Read more
I was talking with some friends late Saturday and one of them asked me, "what happened to you? You were doing so good..." She wanted to know why I gai... Read more
This is probably the worst cold of my life! I can't breathe, my nose is about to fall off and I have a consistent need to sneeze, only I can't.
I'm... Read more
The biggest enemy of self-confidence we have is that little voice inside our heads telling us we aren't good enough. To counteract that, I decided to... Read more
I decided that this is going to be my year! My year to get myself back on the right track, headed in the right direction. This month I've decided that... Read more
So yesterday my sister and I went to the gym (like we always do) and were just finishing our workout (yesterday was just legs) and as I was doing my c... Read more
Last evening I decided to do the arc trainer instead of the elliptical for my cardio (the arc trainer is like an elliptical lite - the elliptical kill... Read more
