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one day soon

Friday, April 17, 2015      10 comments

time.... memories to replace the ones that are in the front of vision. most of all, I dont think of it as a hole or something to fill. I think of it as a spot/scuff/sticker/mask/dirt or smudge that is on my heart. like a stain. I need to work at... Read more


Saturday, April 11, 2015      9 comments

TRIGGER WARNING:THIS TOO SHALL PASS BLOG UPDATE: ......I just wanted maybe some advice or uplifting support..I am bipolar/depressive with PTSD. I take a lot of meds. Three months ago I left my abusive husband.I am permanently disabled and am wa... Read more

change this

Thursday, April 09, 2015      13 comments

I feel like I will never be happy. I can never get my ex off my mind no matter what I do I have done what he always on my mind. I always worry about how I could have been good with him for 4 years if I didn't fight every two weeks what about me?... Read more


Wednesday, April 08, 2015      10 comments

I know a few people who are in some sort of an abusive relationship. Recently a woman died at her ex-husbands hands. She was dropping off their pet and all the public knows is that she was beaten to death and he's in jail. My point is, Don't min... Read more


Tuesday, April 07, 2015      11 comments

feeling very upset and full of anxiety today as i found out my daughter has been nice to my face and relocated me when i did not want her too and today i found out the whole time she was paid by my husband to put/move me out when i was in the ho... Read more


Sunday, April 05, 2015      13 comments

I called the house to talk to him thinking we could finally have closure...we could talk things out adults do....but what I got was someone very much in denial who just abused and threatened to torture me further. He was hateful ... Read more

hard day night

Sunday, April 05, 2015      10 comments

stayed in bed from noon to 9pm last night and stayed up for hours then slept 3 hours,wanted to go to church this morning but cant get a food here for almost 3 weeks ,been eating at daughters,cant get food or money or even a damn coffee m... Read more

bad emotions

Saturday, April 04, 2015      4 comments

I feel like a big bum!!!! I have been gone from my home siince feb. with 0 income and all the help i have applyed for has not come threw so i can buy nothing .I think i will just tell my daughter im too sick to go to easter dinner tomorrow as i ... Read more


Saturday, April 04, 2015      9 comments

I will try to keep my life calm & unruffled. This is my great task, to find peace & acquire serenity. I must not harbor disturbing thoughts. No matter what fears, worries, & resentments I may have, I must try to think of constructive things, unt... Read more

new day

Friday, April 03, 2015      11 comments

I left him for the last time on Feb.14 2014., our anniversary!!!! He was extremely abusive and controlling. I mean we're talking borderline captivity/torture. I've attempted to leave tons of times, but always returned. I've been doing really wel... Read more


Wednesday, April 01, 2015      13 comments

I escaped 6 weeks ago and after a hospital stay!!!! he was very calm and polite, no real conversation between the 2 of us but it really pulled at my heart strings, I miss my family being together I miss the illusion I had. I know I can never go ... Read more


Wednesday, March 25, 2015      21 comments

FREEDOM ISN'T FREE: My abuser/husband kicked/locked me out while i was in the hospital. I have envisioned this day, listened to the audio I have of him threatening me and wondered what life could be like. Now that he's gone out of my life I find... Read more


Tuesday, March 24, 2015      13 comments

What I hate most about anxiety is waking up with it. It’s like an emotional hangover – the first thing you feel before you open your eyes. I want to be able to tie my anxiety to an event or person or thing. Maybe then I could make sense of i... Read more

this to shall pass when?

Tuesday, March 24, 2015      16 comments

I feel like I have have spent the majority of my life either alone and neglected or under the thumb of the abuser at the time. There have been fleeting moments in which I had a functional relationship. When is it supposed to get better? When am ... Read more

home is where the heart is.

Saturday, March 21, 2015      14 comments

I feel like the little boy that cryed wolf.I asked my daughter many times when my husband and i would disagree to come and rescue me and help me get a apartment and she never would so i was mad at her.Things were going ok and 6 weeks ago she pic... Read more

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