People are AMAZING!!!!
I realize a whole month has gone by since I blogged last, so my apologies to those of you wondering how I'm coping....
The good news is that I am coping better now, -- much better actually.
Hubby (....read EX) moved out on Sep 29th, ... Read more
tiniest bit of energy today -- finally!
After these past 2 blurry weeks of emotional carnage, horrible self esteem, complete lack of appetite - coupled with everything tasting of straw, a huge lump in my heart that seems to be the source of all my grief...I finally had a day where I f... Read more
Trying to numb the pain
I don't know how to write what I'm about to write....
For those of you who have read my previous blog, you will know that my husband wants to separate, and that he is actively looking for another woman. He has not moved out yet.
Today... Read more
My Husband is from Mars. I am from Venus.
I began my quest to figure out what could be the root cause of my husband's and my relationship problems/failures, and came to the conclusion that everything was based on communication failure. After gleaning a few insights after some serious s... Read more
Full of Thoughts but Feeling Empty
Since Saturday's blow when my husband told me he wanted to separate, I have been so down.
Today was the first day I was able to eat more than 800 calories or so -- the heartache was so unbearable I couldn't eat. Everything tastes of straw... Read more
Today my husband of 19 years told me he wants to separate.
I am totally devastated right now. I've asked him to give this one more try -- this time differently -- with counseling. He has not agreed. He wants to find someone new.
The... Read more
The beginning of healing
Since I last wrote it feels like an eternity has passed.
I am starting to realize there is still some strength left in me somewhere....I will be ok when this is over.
I have been prescribed some antidepressants/anti anxiety med which I... Read more
Good Weight Loss, Bad General Situation
I have been diligent with my intake and daily tracking thereof --except, oddly today. I have had the great proud feeling of dropping the first 15 lbs, only to go up 3 again due to that delightful (NOT!!!) time of month. But I perservered throu... Read more
First Goal attained!!!
Well, I did it! I'm officially 15 lbs lighter than 5 weeks ago.
Not only that-- my BMI has gone down into the overweight zone from obese.
I've also lost about 1 inch off my waist, and most other measurements that you can track here o... Read more
Progress is showing :-)
The pants I wore yesterday I haven't worn in years (so many I can't count -- maybe 13?) -- and they were always tight. Yesterday they fit perfectly.
The pants I wore today fit me well just 1 month ago -- today I needed a belt to keep them ... Read more
Reflecting on my first month back at Sparking
After a bit of a crisis realizing my marriage is in trouble, it has now been 1 month I have been tracking daily (except during our 10 day vacation). I have excercised most days. I have lost 14 pounds. I do feel better, clothes are fitting bet... Read more
Calorie Torching day
Today I had my exercise...more than I usually manage to get in several days in just a couple of hours....My kids were in swim club camp, so I hit the gym there and did the elliptical. Then I did some yoga/stretching, before I entered the pool a... Read more
Can't help but feel dissapointed
The last 10 days we were away on vacation with our trailer. We drove to our friend's house on the lake, spent 1 night, and then headed up to the mountain to a cabin where we did a lot of hiking the next 3 days. One day was a 3 hour hike, the n... Read more
First day back is a success!
Walked/Ran 25 minutes this morning, then did 40 minutes on the elliptical arc trainer this evening, torching a grand total of 498 calories today -- I am so happy I did that. I even stretched properly after!
My food intake was in check als... Read more
2010 vs 2013
January 2010: I found Sparkpeople and I knew it was going to help me loose the weight I've been wanting to rid myself of. I really was proud of the 17 lbs I lost that year.
A cruise near Christmas time caused a stall and an eventual tail... Read more