Not Following in My Mother's Footsteps
Saturday, February 27, 2010      1 comments

My mother died when she was 56 from heart problems. Before her death - for a number of years, she was unable to even walk around the block without having to stop several times to catch her breath and recoup physically. She weighed over 300 pou... Read more
A Day to Pick on Myself
Thursday, February 04, 2010      0 comments

I hate the way I look in my profile picture. I have been avoiding pictures for a long time. If photos are taken I avoid looking at them. I have now stuck to my diet for 38 days and have lost 14.5 pounds as of my last weigh-in. I calculat... Read more
Tuesday, February 02, 2010      1 comments

Just a moment ago I read a post from someone who said she was seriously suicidal. I know the feeling - I have been so close to suicide myself many times. My grandfather, whom I never met, killed himself. My father shot himself through his bra... Read more
28 Day Blitz!!!!
Tuesday, February 02, 2010      0 comments

Today I started my official '28 Day Blitz' which is four weeks I have dedicated to exercising MORE, eating just a wee bit LESS (1200 calories a day), and eating lots of fruits and vegetables. Today I had a Balance bar for breakfast. For lunch ... Read more
Doing Something for Myself
Sunday, January 31, 2010      0 comments

I put up several notes to myself on sticky pads, and one by one they tell me things that I am hopeful will keep me on track with my dieting process. One says 'Live for this day.' Another says 'What would you be doing today if you were thin?' ... Read more