Weather report for the week so far: pretty fair.
Physically: made it to the gym twice, did not eat crap (mostly).
Spiritually: held solstice vigil, spent a lot of good time with friends who I love, went to another solstice party, going ... Read more
Floral! Motivational Dress Friday
I had decided I was going to stop doing motivational dresses because of my breasts. Yep. The odds of me ever having a 38" chest are next to nothing. Right now I'm an F cup, and even though I imagine that changing, I really don't want it to ch... Read more
Plaid, Polka-Dot, Striped.... PATTERNS
I'm really good at noticing my patterns. I'm a pretty self-aware girl, have a good therapist, a strong community that will call me on my bs, and a good practice of checking myself before I wreck myself.
So, this is a pattern I've noticed: ... Read more
...and a more personal update.
Last time I was on here I was just about to leave for a writer's conference. That conference ended up being incredibly challenging in a hundred ways. I'm glad that I went, but am grieving missing the event that I skipped that weekend. Once I ... Read more
Motivation: Why I Don't Have it or Want it Anymore
From the Oxford English Dictionary:
Pronunciation: Brit. /ˌməʊtᵻ
712;veɪʃn/ , U.S. /ˌmoʊdəˈve
Etymology: motive v. + -ation suffix, prob... Read more
Too Good to be True
I'm feeling all out of sorts this morning, so I decided to weigh myself to verify that I am, indeed, in twoville. But when I did, it said that I was back at 306. That is, like, a ten pound discrepancy overnight.
WTF! Do I just need a ne... Read more
Thinking About Food, Energy, and Relationships
This has been a really hard month for me. I'm in the crux of a big spiritual shift, have been doing huge work with my therapist, am renegotiating the poly-status of my primary relationship, am having major life changing things happening with my... Read more
Frankly, I don't quite believe it. To be fair, I did weigh myself dressed, which I never do, which the WII allots two pounds for -- I'm wearing a mini dress, a bra, stockings, and my glasses -- so I could believe that this accounts for two poun... Read more
ROCK-TOBER: a jam, a dress, a confession
September was a wash. But it is October, I'm feeling the equinox working in my bones, and I'm ready to gettirdone (I've been watching a ridiculous amount of Friday Night Lights).
Anyway, I keep putting myself back in Stage 2 because I don'... Read more
which is my pitiful sound of pitifulness.
Dudes, I have been in a funk. A FUNK. a crazy not getting things done not working out eating weirdly funk. Still in my plateau, not going to dance class, and feeling really overwhelmed about the ... Read more
Two Good Good Days, One Great Bad Day, and Fashion
What a yo-yo week. Monday I don't even remember. Tuesday and Wednesday were awesome; I stayed in my calorie range, relaxed, made art, and went to Jazzercise both days. Yesterday I had a dim sum and shopping date with a good friend and planned... Read more
Advice Needed: Brand New Girls Need Brand New Clothes
So, I've plateaued. You know why I've plateaued? I haven't done any darn work. So while I've been kvetching that I've been yo-yoing between 305 and 310 for the past month, I also haven't gone to jazzercise.
But I went last night and the... Read more
A Motivational Dress, Rational Thinking, and Being Back
I think the thing I like most about blogging is that I'm able to look at my last month and see how much I've whined and how little I've done about it. Not to say that I haven't had an amazing few weeks of fun, haven't been depressed at all, and... Read more
A Day of Being DONE
Yesterday morning I woke up feeling great. I was all like "oh, it is the beginning of August! I'm going to get back on track and lose 10 pounds in August. I really wanted to be at 280 at the beginning of the quarter; there is still time!"
... Read more
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