Sometimes I feel what we go through is a form of punishment.
I seen my ex and his gf at the store today.
I felt so sick to my stomach.
Everything came rushing back. The hurt and the pain that I thought I was through with.
I know I... Read more
I've realized I use food for comfort.
Food hasn't ever left me. It hasn't ever let me down.
I need to start fresh TODAY and eat healthy.
Workout atleast 3 hours a week. I am working part time at the moment. This wi... Read more
I am addicted to food. the look. the smell. how it tastes. i don't think people realize they are addicted. i do and i am. i have been going strong eating healthy for three days. it is so hard to stay on track. one sight and smell can trigger it.... Read more
I haven't really been on here much. I am have been trying to keep my weight on a steady downward spiral. It is not working very well. I am going through school and I have 12 weeks left until I graduate.
It has now been 6 months since my ex... Read more
Oh man I feel like death has warmed me over.
atleast I slept good last night. I passed out early and woke up at 6am on the dot.
I am down 2 pounds that is good. I did NOT get any workouts in last week.
This week I am going to consint... Read more
I guess I am finding out that a lot of men out there just want sex. Although I do agree sex is a big part of a relationship it isn't everything and I am no where near ready yet.
Three days ago my ex got mad at me for something I did and to... Read more
I have decided to move on and start dating. Well I was just looking and talking to guys untiI got the most amazing response from a guy. I got instant giggles. I just felt something.
I am going out tomorrow with adults. Hoping getting to se... Read more
I created a online membership to a dating site to get my mind off of Aaron. At first it worked. The men are nice and tell me I am all kinds of beauitful.
I just realized that I am so messed up. I miss him so much. I would choose having our... Read more
Aaron and I have been through a lot together. Ups and downs. Fighting. Being homeless.
Yesterday at 9:21 pm he showed up. Dropped off our van (that is in my name) took his bag with some clothing and his PS3 and left.
He is tired of m... Read more
Alright I am a stong person. I am aways here doing the right thing and encouraging others. I have let my eating slip up and I put some weight back on. Now this week I have been good. I have eat really good and stayed under my calories. Today I w... Read more
You read that right. Tomorrow is the new today. Quit telling yourself oh I do that tomorrow. I will try a spark recipe tomorrow. I will work out tomorrow. Tomorrow I will eat better. Today we can do all them things. Today I will try a new sparkr... Read more
My goals for this next week:
Get in 500 mins of fitness.
Start my EA2 account back up.
Get some Resistant/ weight training done atleast 3 times
Get back on track with my fitness. Both of the boys will be at school starti... Read more
I guess there is a point when you realize all the people around dont matter as much as yourself. The people I hang out with do not get that I am trying to get healthy. I am a mom and I have to take care of my children. I am not single and do not... Read more
Well I have not fallen off the wagon. I am doing really well. Except for a burger here and there on the trip I did amazing. (I like wopper jrs without mayo from burger king, 290 calories).. As for the trip we broke down. UGH we got about 20 mins... Read more