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Why am I so hard on myself?
Friday, April 22, 2011      7 comments

I have been beating myself up over tons of things. I am pmsing and bloated. I feel like crap and feel really fat. Two days in a row this week I ate whatever I wanted to. Pushed myself to feel sick both times. I know all the chemicals make me fee... Read more
thank you/ being accountable
Wednesday, April 20, 2011      4 comments

First off I would like to say thank you to all my friends. You are simply amazing. Second I am going to hold myself accountable. Today I went overboard with lunch. I ate myself until I felt sick. I made the wrong choices. For lunch today I... Read more
sparkpeople motivator?
Sunday, April 17, 2011      11 comments

I want to be a motivator. I am putting in all the work I can to motivate my friends through ups and downs. I am wondering how many votes it takes... I post sparkpeople on facebook so everyone can follow my journey. To date I am down 85 pou... Read more
crap crap and more crap
Wednesday, March 30, 2011      3 comments

Lets start this off by saying. That yes this is a vent blog again. I am sorry. I just feel like crap. I havent worked out REALLY sweating working out since last Tuesday. I feel like crap about myself and about my life. I got offered ... Read more
feeling worthless...
Thursday, March 17, 2011      7 comments

I have fallen off track. 5 out of 7 days this week I have binged. I have went over my calorie counts and just didnt log it. I am tired and I feel like crap. I do not want to do my workouts. I hate myself and my life at this point. There c... Read more
FINALLY before pics of me at almost 300 pounds.... (picture heavy)
Friday, February 25, 2011      6 comments

Before I had kids. I was about 230-240 in this picture. Just found out I was pregnant with my oldes... Read more
binge eating, I am having a rough month.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011      2 comments

First off let me start by saying that I am sorry for all the "poor me" blogs lately. I am not being the most stable person.... I deserve better than this and that is what I am giving myself from now on... That being said.... Alright I do... Read more
Feeling like a failure
Saturday, February 19, 2011      2 comments

Recently I got a new scale... I didnt like the new number that was on there but I accepted it. Granted every scale was different. Well after having a conversation with my mom and dad about it I decided to take the scale back to the store and go ... Read more
I REFUSE to let my weight define me!
Sunday, February 13, 2011      3 comments

Ok so I went out and got a scale today. Previously I was using the WII board to weigh me. I went up three pounds on it. On top of not losing crap in the last two weeks. GET THIS..... I am a size 10 now and not a 12. I havent done measurements ye... Read more
Binge Eating
Saturday, February 12, 2011      2 comments

Today I realized that I am a bad binge eater. I think I may have BED. I read all the things people with BED struggle with. I have a lot of them. I mean A LOT of them. Last night I had a snack and I just felt like I couldnt stop eating them... Read more
Saturday, January 29, 2011      2 comments

I am wondering about doing a Detoxification. I know I take in way too many chemicals. I need to eat a little healthier. There are so many things out there that can help you out with this. I know eating all healthy fruits and veggis helps a lot. ... Read more
10 months down
Saturday, January 22, 2011      3 comments

I know this is two days late. I am 10 months into this journey and I am down 75, almost 76 pounds. Am I going to be down 100 by the time March 20th comes? I dont know but I know that everyday I am one step closer to my goal. I have 37 more pound... Read more
Diet Coke brownies... NOT good
Tuesday, January 11, 2011      1 comments

I have come to realize that I am a compulsive eater when it comes to sweets. When I have them it is like I will never have them again sort of thing. I eat until my stomach hurts. Last night for a treat I made diet coke brownies. Its when you get... Read more
A trip and goals
Monday, December 27, 2010      2 comments

My goals have been off this year. I have hit some of them late. As of today I havent seen the damage I did over the two day holiday feast we had. I ate a few cookies and a few bites of cake. Just praying I didnt gain. My 1 year anniversary of li... Read more
What I want to be
Wednesday, December 08, 2010      0 comments

I do not want to be the smallest girl in the room. I want to be healthy. I do not want to be the fittest girl in the room. I just want to be healthy. I do not have to run for hours I am good with doing the elliptical for a hour. On the hil... Read more

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