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struggle

Wednesday, February 26, 2014      2 comments

Today I stepped on the scale after I realized my scrubs are getting tighter and tighter. I haven't weighed this much since 2011. I'm disapointed in myself so many diffrent ways I feel angry and depressed. I go visit my mothernin Florida in 6 ... Read more

dating

Tuesday, March 19, 2013      2 comments

Today I feel accomplished. I work midnights and it is pretty hard to get into a routine enough and not be tired. I have worked my schedule out where I can work out everyday. I can feed my children and myself healthy dinners and I will h... Read more

Addicted To food

Monday, March 18, 2013      5 comments

I know it is hard to come out and say this and I have said it many times. I get addicted to food. To the point where I can't even taste it anymore. Keep on track working out and controling what I eat is my best combact for this. I watch... Read more

2013

Tuesday, January 08, 2013      3 comments

I've been MIA because I have no way of getting on the site site. I wish Sparkpeople was more of a ap like facebook or other aps so we could blog and see eachothers stuff from our phones. Anyhow. I dropped weight during the holidays!! I am so ... Read more

New day

Friday, November 30, 2012      1 comments

So I missed yesterday with a blog. Oh well. I did a little christmas shopping and had lunch with a friend for her birthday. I was up for 30 hours straight so I didn't work out. I did a hour on my work out bike today. Pumping the water thou... Read more

Sleep and working out

Wednesday, November 28, 2012      0 comments

Today I slept for almost 7 hours that is a record for my overnight job. I only did a mile on the treadmill though. I wanted to push myself but I do not have enough time in the day to fold 4 loads of laundry and do a hour today. Tomorrow is my fi... Read more

In a state of bliss

Tuesday, November 27, 2012      1 comments

There isn't anything like the endorphin rush you feel after being on the treadmill for a hour. I am seriously in a state of bliss. I am forcing water down my throat like nothing else. I CAN and WILL do this. I have battled my whole life wi... Read more

i feel trapped

Tuesday, November 27, 2012      2 comments

Ive put on so much weight. I'm working overnights and I feel trapped. i started drinkong more water and working out again. my food intake is insane. I hate the fact that I can't remember a time in my life since I was 8 that I haven't. Been on so... Read more

Food making me sick?

Sunday, August 12, 2012      3 comments

I have been sick the last four days. I am starting to wonder if it is what I am eating. Could food be making me sick? At first I thought it was just fast food because everytime I ate that I go into a coma state of sickness. I feel flu like... Read more

logging on and getting fitness in

Saturday, August 04, 2012      4 comments

So I started fresh about a week ago. I was so scared of the scale I didn't dare weigh myself. I did it today after lunch and I am so ashamed that I am over 200 again. I CAN do this. My issue is getting the fitness in during my work week... Read more

Being punished

Thursday, July 26, 2012      6 comments

Sometimes I feel what we go through is a form of punishment. I seen my ex and his gf at the store today. I felt so sick to my stomach. Everything came rushing back. The hurt and the pain that I thought I was through with. I know I... Read more

Starting Fresh

Sunday, July 22, 2012      7 comments

I've realized I use food for comfort. Food hasn't ever left me. It hasn't ever let me down. I need to start fresh TODAY and eat healthy. My goals: Workout atleast 3 hours a week. I am working part time at the moment. This wi... Read more

being addicted to food

Wednesday, April 18, 2012      11 comments

I am addicted to food. the look. the smell. how it tastes. i don't think people realize they are addicted. i do and i am. i have been going strong eating healthy for three days. it is so hard to stay on track. one sight and smell can trigger it.... Read more

6 months

Monday, April 09, 2012      3 comments

I haven't really been on here much. I am have been trying to keep my weight on a steady downward spiral. It is not working very well. I am going through school and I have 12 weeks left until I graduate. It has now been 6 months since my ex... Read more

Down two pounds and sick

Sunday, November 20, 2011      2 comments

Oh man I feel like death has warmed me over. atleast I slept good last night. I passed out early and woke up at 6am on the dot. I am down 2 pounds that is good. I did NOT get any workouts in last week. This week I am going to consint... Read more


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