Where does the time go?
I can honestly say that when I was my healthiest, I was also as mindful of every moment as I have ever been. I was living in the moment and taking advantage of the time around me. That is not so much true right now. Yesterday I had a complete me... Read more
Slow progress, but still moving forward
It has been almost a month since my last post. Does that sound like the start of a confession, cuz I'm not Catholic, but that does sound a little familiar from tv shows. I am making steady progress in my goals but not without s... Read more
It is all mental!
I am happy to report that I'm making some steps forward, not a ton, but some. I recognize that my thinking is totally off base sometimes, and last week when I was really struggling I started to text a good friend who kept me accountable over the... Read more
Moving in the right direction I guess
Hey everyone! This is not a big thing for anyone else I'm sure, but last week I did make some doctor appointments. Friday of last week I went and got allergy testing done. I want a pet. I need something else to take care of in my life because th... Read more
Another new month
Happy Monday everyone. I started this blog over the weekend, but just could not make myself write out what I'm thinking. Why is it so much easier to believe what I say to myself than to say it out loud? I know what I am thinking is mean and unre... Read more
Spring break update
The last couple weeks have been so stressful. Between work projects and trouble with two staff members, who are both more than 20 years older than me, and being unhappy in my life I am exhausted. My parents are here for a long visit and I love t... Read more
Depression is the devil
Where to start? The last week was really stressful, about 70 hours of work and stressful. I let my walking go and messed up with my food. The short story is that I started to do good about six or seven weeks ago. Pretty much gave up gluten and a... Read more
Thursday of a tough week
Not a big surprise to anyone but Valentine's Day and I have always had a rocky relationship. Growing up I spent one of the holiday's in the hospital getting stitches after trying to cut off my finger at work and twice I spent the holiday at fune... Read more
...and we begin again
First, if you are following my blog, a warning for you. I have always thought that I needed to blog a long thing if I was going to put anything down in writing. You know, be all thorough and deep, but that is really not what I need right now. Ri... Read more
I cannot seem to do anything right...
I have been carrying around these thoughts for days and I need to get them out into the world so I can try to let them go. As a warning, these are not happy nice thoughts.
I cannot seem to do anything right. I cannot nourish my body correct... Read more
What am I doing?
This is a long one. Or until I get tired of typing, whichever happens first.
So, I started 2016 doing alright. Not great, but keeping things balanced. Then I started looking for a new job and things got a little crazy. But then things kind ... Read more
Where has January gone?
I have avoided writing a blog because I was sick of always writing how sad or depressed or overwhelmed I was feeling. That has not changed. I do appreciate everyone's advice about seeing a counselor, getting meds figured out, etc. The difficult ... Read more
Day 27 Wednesday, Day 28 Losing Control
Wednesday was a recovery day. I had blisters on my feet and was still exhausted from being so busy the day before. I was also starting to feel more of my symptoms, especially building up anger easily, which is not like me. Making it through work... Read more
Day 26 Tuesday
When I started blogging a couple weeks ago I would write something on my phone while getting ready to go to sleep. It worked really well, but now that I'm back to work and my time seems to slip away from me pretty quick, I definitely am not able... Read more
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Day 25 (yesterday)
What a day! I got up early, went to the gym and that was where the problems started. The Y I workout at has cardio machines but it also has a track that you can walk on as well. I have only been doing treadmills right now because I have some ser... Read more