Okay, I am beyond frustrated! On Tuesday night, I decided to go to chinese. I knew I would retain water which showed on the scale. I jumped up two pounds. I refused to believe that I gained two pounds. For the last two days, I did 60 minutes on ... Read more
Back in the day when my main goal was to lose 100 pounds (which I succeeded in), I blogged nearly everyday. It helped to get the almost instant online support. These days I still lean on that support. In fact, this week I have been trying to use... Read more
Yesterday I was super excited about being 169. I had such plans to get down to 165. Than, this morning I was back at 170.4. I am so frustrated and bummed. I have been bouncing around 170 for months. I am done. A few days ago, I was excited to se... Read more
Progress: Making the Scale Go Down, Down, Down
A few weeks ago, I saw the scale go up, up, up to 175.sometihng. At that point, I decided I had a choice. I can succumb to myself and let myself gain all the weight back or I could take control. I could exercise but I knew my eating was the true... Read more
Isn't that what the Zymbalt commercial says? It's true. For the first time since dealing with depression, I am seeing how it hurts my loved ones. In the past weeks, I have been far from being easy to be around. I have been irritable meaning anyt... Read more
It's your choice.
It's funny how this journey never stops. I know, I know, all maintainers say that. This time I am learning this lesson. I maintained my weight loss for about a year and half and than gained 15 pounds back. I was overwhelmed with the feeling of d... Read more
In the last week, I have been trying to do some soul searching. Since graduating with a Bachelor of Science, my life seems to have lost all spark. I had so much promise. I was going places. In the last couple months, I feel like I have gone no w... Read more
Choose Your Hard
On July 21, 2011, I stepped on the scale and saw the magical numbers 1-6-0. Since than, I have worked to maintain the scale at 160. Like many other people, I thought losing weight was the hard part and maintenance was a cake walk.
I am sur... Read more
Scratch that... I need a challenge.
Today, I was giving plasma when I started up a conversation with the staff, who was an LPN. I have been thinking about going back to school for a long time. We discussed the differences between an CNA, LPN, and RN. They sure sound like viable ca... Read more
I need a pick me up.
Ever woke up one day and realized you didn't know who you were anymore?
I feel like that person. One moment, I was the girl that lost 100 pounds, trained for half marathons, loved eating healthy, and in the best shape I have been in ever. P... Read more
Do you know that moment when you thought you were fine than BAM! you realize you are far, far from fine? I had one of those yesterday.
On Saturday, it felt like a miracle that I finally stopped crying from my Grandma's passing. After the w... Read more
Power of Words
The impact of words are be remarkable.
When I was younger, it was a boy tearing me down because my low esteem was an easy target. Today, it was a spark friend saying the right words. This friend and I stay in contact through email. Part of... Read more
A year ago, I would have felt guilty for 'binging' in times of stress. Even last month, I would have beat myself up. This week, I am determined not to tear myself apart. I have stress in my life (who doesn't?!) and as sad as it is, eating is a c... Read more
Weighing the Pros and Cons about Bjorklund Half Marathon
Lately, I have felt so down and disappointed with my fitness level. I used to have great, toned muscles. Now, I just feel soft. Like my muscles ran away. I want to run Bjorklund Half Marathon but have detrained so much that I can only do about 2... Read more
You may be wondering.. "Why does TCM update her personal life on here? It has nothing to do with weight loss."
Actually, it has everything to do with it. I have found the more stressful I am about my personal life, I tend to take it out on... Read more