Well, after 4 months off I am back...for good I hope. I gained back every ounce that I had lost, which is discouraging. But I am glad to be back. I was sharing with my husband how much I desire to take myself back and get this excess weight o... Read more
I have to say, I am really not motivated. There is a part of me that wants to be motivated, but I feel lazy at the moment. I just don't really have it in me. How did I do from all the enthusiasm and momentum when I was truly enjoying my food ... Read more
Staying Conscious in Eating
Yesterday was a better day. I did plan my food and I stayed with my plan all day until right before bed. I ended up going over my plan by about 100 calories. I consider it a success that I am logging my weight every day, planning my food, and... Read more
September 2, Turning it Over to God
So, yesterday was recommitment day and I started the day feeling discouraged already. I had great ideas for planning on success, but at some level I knew that I was not really going to do it. I ate about 6 mini cupcakes and a rootbeer float. ... Read more
September 1 - Recommitment Day
Today is the day for re-commitment. I am already feeling discouraged about it. We are having a picnic with some families and I want to eat mindlessly at this event. Why would I want to do that when in the long run I don't ever feel good about... Read more
August Setback - September Recommitment
During the month of August I encountered a mental setback. It started with my vacation, continued during a two week visit from my niece, and I eventually threw my hands up and said, "To heck with August...I'll start back on my plan in September... Read more
VACATION SUPPORT NEEDED!!!!
I am on vacation this week. It is day #3 of the vacation, and I am finding that although I came prepared to stay with my plan, it is harder than I expected.
I brought my scale, my computer & my bike. I am tracking my food, but still went ... Read more
Celebrating the First 5 Pounds Off
I have never been so excited over losing 5 pounds. This is the hardest 5 pounds I've ever lost. I remember the days when I could lose 5 pounds in 2 weeks. Not anymore. But I am just thrilled. Today is exactly one month since I started using... Read more
How to Really be Alive, by SARK
Stamp out conformity.
Stay in be all day.
Dream of gypsy wagons
Develop an astounding appetite for books.
Draw out your feelings.
Stop worrying now.
If not now, when?
... Read more
What's Up with my Metabolism?!
I really think there must be something wrong with my metabolism. I am tracking every crumb I eat on the Diet Power program. It tells me how many calories I should eat to lose 13 pounds by August 1. (A reasonable goal I think.)
I weigh an... Read more
My Fitness Program Development
My history with fitness and exercise is that I have never enjoyed exercise (I am now enjoying exercise for the first time in my life.) I have been a member of a health club for the last 7 years. I don't use the health club regularly, especially... Read more
The Universe is On Your Side
A couple of weeks ago I read a wonderful book, The Alchemist, by Coelho.
There is a quote in the book that says, "When a person really desires something all the universe conspires to help that person realize his dream."
I love that ide... Read more
We're in this Together
This is a quote from SARK who is a big inspiration to me at this time in my program.
She says, "We can share our abundant flaws and laugh at how similar we all are.
I am no longer ashamed to be human! We can fart exuberantly together ... Read more
Self-rejection Hangs on Tightly as Cellulite
This is me and my 'adopted' mother, Sol. She is a wonderful, lovely woman who has always loved me radically.
I have been consciously working on radical self-acceptance, knowing that when I love myself, my lifestyle and choices will reflect... Read more
Modeling Health for my Daughter
Today Hannah and I had a wonderful shared experience. She and I went down to the basement in our exercise clothes and we did an interval training DVD together.
It was so fun to make this memory with her. I have not one single memory in my ... Read more