A New Day
I can't say, "A New Me" because i am still me. I want to avoid this to the extent that one of the issues I have with being big is that i am often pre-judged - some people treat me as fat, before they treat me as a woman, as intelligent, as cre... Read more
If nothing changes, nothing changes.
I have been trying to make changes - without making any changes! How screwed up is that?
This is what i wrote in a team topic today - cant be bothered writing it twice so it's just copied...
Funny thing happened to me today...
I ... Read more
warts and all...
I guess that the place of personal honesty, and integrity towards myself, is very central in my journey towards wellbeing in all its dimensions.
When I started here at spark i was very excited at the prospect of once again giving myself a c... Read more
getting back into it - finding Nia
I have been online a lot since being sick, just sorting through exercise challenges and such, working on a daily and weekly rhythym that would suit both Crusoe and myself.
While browsing the fitness teams, looking for something that would ... Read more
PSYCHOSOMATIC SABOTAGE, or just a cowardly rant of excuses?
What is this? Everytime I seem to finally move forward, making my goals more specific and set some realistic small goals to reach, my body does something to throw me off balance. Today it is flu symptoms, and i have been in bed for 2 days. Las... Read more
Well, it wasn't 10 pounds...
AAAGGHH!! It was 18 pounds! 256lbs by my new little scales.
So i have changed everything - my start weight, my ticker...my goals...
Speaking of goals - you will notice (when I finally write them in - NOT TODAY!) that some are VERY sm... Read more
Weight about to go up by 10 pounds...
How, you ask? Well I dropped my old scales and they broke! I always loved them as they weighed me less than i knew i was. I went by them as they were what was available - knowing i would have to face this one day.
So I shall be kind to my... Read more
Starting to address the issues that are holding me back...
The other day I started listing some of the issues that were clarifying for me - my unwillingness to address the hard work I face. Yes, I am trying to lighten up! But I am so SICK the OBSESSION with my weight and food, of sabotaging myself DAIL... Read more
Todays reflection on todays Reflection
"Taking Responsibility for Your Success
We all need support from other people. Love, encouragement, words of advice and friendship will help you get through the important stages in your life. When people are in your corner, you feel like ta... Read more
More this, less that
I guess I am using this as a bit of a journal - very therapeutic for me. You know those days when you dont really have much get up and go; where you have sort of journeyed inside for the day, rather than out. I have had one of those days - intr... Read more
This and that
I have had so much food for thought this week that i hardly know where to start. But first i want to express to all my new spark friends my gratitude for your input into my life. You will never know the light you have given me this past few wee... Read more
blah day to ahah! day
Yep I started today in a fog. Tired, pity party, fearful, carb hangover etc. Felt powerless over food and the daily chaos that can be life with a toddler. Finally organised myself to get Crusoe onto the child's seat and my butt onto the bike ... Read more
Starting stage 2!
okay, I spent the weekend practicing some of the tracking tools on SP. I think i get it! I have started tracking my food seriously now, and keeping an eye on my calorie intake. (its only lunchtime and i have already nearly reached my limit! Th... Read more
Bung knee tries to ruin holiday...
I took the tent to Barwon Heads, a popular oceanside getaway just over an hours drive away. By the time i got there, with all my walking and jogging plans (Ocean Grove beach is fantastic for running - lots of coastline and good hard sand base), ... Read more
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some favorite quotes...
I do not want to die... until I have faithfully made the most of my talent and cultivated the seed that was placed in me until the last small twig has grown.
Kathe Kollwitz, O Magazine, September 2002
Never doubt that a small group of t... Read more