Turned a corner
L has gotten more mature, all of a sudden. 3 1/2 is full of reasoning and understanding and intentional tantrums.
Yes! I can deal with those! He's pouting for a reaction, testing me? I get that! I can do that! I did that with his older brothe... Read more
The reasons for the things
When my son "L" was around age 2 we started to realize he was doing things differently. It came in a trickle, and then a flood, when he was kicked out of his daycare for pushing the kids who got in his space. He had just started there a few mo... Read more
Having a hard time staying positive in the January cold. 55 more days to the spring solstice. Seems like a very long time just now. I think I will try to prepare for gym visits by washing workout clothes, packing gym bag, writing workouts in my ... Read more
Exercise, you are gone but not forgotten
I have kept up healthy eating habits for the most part. Not perfect, but generally balanced and healthy, only snacking after dinner a little bit.
Exercise, oh where has it gone, it started with a frustration over driving in ice and snow, f... Read more
Brownies aren't that good...
okay, maybe that sounds annoying. But I've been "giving in" to some cravings...for donuts, brownies, gooey-sugary things to comfort self in this frigid temperature, and I have been disappointed every time. and I don't sleep good. and I feel crap... Read more
Got on scale and didn't melt, cry, or hate self
I've been so afraid of the scale because in the past it was my mean-coach, hate-fueler, always measuring how much further I had to go instead of how far I had come...I would find someone (someone else, not me, a model, an actress, a petite frien... Read more
Craving indian, sweet potatoes, and apple rasberry crumble...
Instead of pizza, ice cream, peanut butter out of the jar...I am eating differently and the further I go, the weirder (grosser) my old favorite foods start to taste and even sound to me. I enjoy my individual dark chocolate sea salt caramels inf... Read more
Pizza, no problem
I ate 2 1/2 pieces of pizza last night. This is a good thing. It was family "pizza party" night. I stopped when there was plenty of pizza left. I had a sip of rootbeer, for the bubbly taste, then passed to husband. I am sure it helped that I exe... Read more
I got stressed AND I ate soup?? who is this person
So yesterday was one of those days. Traffic, clients, everyone needed me and no one was happy about it. I had work I absolutley had to do when I got home and my toddler was pounding on the keyboard and crying while I tried to type and important ... Read more
One thing at a time
So I was feeling surprised and dismayed by how quickly I ended up in the middle of yucky body issues I thought were in the past. I thought I had grown way beyond that nonsense. I was wrong. After I joined spark people and began a food journal, n... Read more
Veered quickly down the body image path, numbers, measures, envy, yuck!
I started this project to brighten my spirit, or maybe uncover the layers of junk that collect on top of it, psychologically. I wanted to remind my self how good I can feel and how much I can accomplish. I wanted to feel better, brighter, calme... Read more
I'll do it when everything is calm and perfect (HAH!)
I realized yesterday I am still waiting for a lot of things to line up perfectly and go how I want BEFORE I make changes in my life. I don't think this is helpful... In the past I "got healthy" during intense periods of self-focus when I didnt h... Read more