Disappointed, accepting it, and moving on.
So as I sit here at a weight of about 260, I could not be more disappointed in myself. Last year around this time I started doing what I needed to, and lost about 22 pounds. I hit a plateu, and hovered around the weight of 250 for a long time. T... Read more
Have you ever had a dream where you were thin?
I have only been having them recently, and they are strange LOL. I have had 3 of them. In each one I am thin (or more like medium) and I am so shocked by what I see... but then I still feel fat. I am sure that is because my mind knows that I am ... Read more
I have spiraled so far out of control, I just feel helpless. So I'm just breaking it down. Step 1 is going to be stop eating fast food (I've been on a fast food kick for almost 2 weeks now, ridiculousness)... or at least cut WAAAAAYYYY back. Ste... Read more
My brother is pretttttyyy sllliiiiick haha!
So basically, when my dad approaches me about my weight issues... I get defensive. The way he goes about it is more like an attack, or him trying to tell me what to do and how to do it, but not in a constructive way.
My brother on the other... Read more
300 Pounds, Coming Soon To A Theater Near You!
Haven't been around in a while... and you know that is usually not good. I am lucky that I ahven't really started putting back on the weight (not yet at least). I started at 272, and got down to 250 and have hovered there for a very long time. B... Read more
Back To Basics
So I have a super dooper-ly awesome spark friend, she rocks. She's lost 50 pounds and she always listens to me and my nonsense. I am very thankful for her, without her I probably wouldn't even be logging into the site at this point.
I keep ... Read more
So uncomfortable, all the time! =/
Before, I would only be uncomfortable in certain situations. Like I am always uncomfortable when I'm out (pretty much) because of the looks I get. Grocery store, out to eat, the mall, anywhere pretty much ha ha! But I've noticed that now that my... Read more
Isn't It Ironic, Dontcha Think?
I think it is at least a *little bit* ironic. So I am the first to say "I've ONLY lost 24 pounds." At this exact moment, it's more like 21 unfortunately... but I started this weight loss journey at my all time highest weight of 272. I got down t... Read more
So who has a WII Fit?
I honestly don't know much about them, but I keep hearing about people who just love them. So if you have one, do you like it? What kinda games did you get for it? I don't even have a WII, I mean I could buy a video game or two if I went through... Read more
Beyond Done-sies (And TMI Alert)!
I just got back from 10 days visiting my Gammie (grandma) in Vegas. We had a blast. We went to a Carrie Underwood concert, and gambled, shopped, did puzzles, it was fun. I didn't hit one buffet while I was there... surprisingly I don't care for ... Read more
I have decided I refuse to settle...
First off, a side note... I honestly want to say thank you to anyone who has ever commented on my spark page or spark blogs. It truly means a lot to see a comment. I've noticed quite a few people mentioning they never get respones to their stuff... Read more
I can't believe I am admitting this...
I guess by admitting it, and putting it out there, I'm hoping I will finally be accountable.
It has been two weeks since my friend passed away. In those two weeks, I have only gone to his funeral, and gone to work. If it wasn't for work I d... Read more
1 little comment can make all the difference :D
This weekend at work we have free dress in honor of mother's day. Now in my uniform, I look exceptionally huge because the pants are made for men (they didn't have women's ones back when I got those, they do now, I need new ones) and we tuck in ... Read more
I *lost* 1 1/2 pounds... WTF?
Okay, before you totally laugh at me, let me just say I am absolutley not complaining.;) I am just honestly amazed. Over the past 10 days, I have done nothing but eat fast food. I have not cared about much of anything lately (and some of you alr... Read more
I need to stop being ridiculous...
So it's been about 8 days since a friend of mine passed away. He has literally broken my heart. I am sad for me, at the loss of my friend, but the thing is he was only 27 years old. He was a deputy (a very good one who made more arrests then any... Read more