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weight loss maintainer, weight regain
Saturday, October 04, 2014      0 comments

I can't believe I used to be successful. Is there anything more depressing than that thought right now? Triggered by a recent pic of a Spark friend who's actually maintaining, and has consistently been maintaining, her weight loss, the thought... Read more
back to regular running
Thursday, September 26, 2013      4 comments

My goal of completing a half marathon -- which I dismissed as achievable as my knee worsened -- is back on the table! Last Friday I saw a new knee doctor who gave me the go-ahead to ignore the pain as long it was tolerable and assured me no exe... Read more
Spark break over
Monday, September 23, 2013      13 comments

Back in June, I turned my spark page offline. Why? 1- Seeing people's successes on Sparkpeople heightened my shame regarding how out of control I felt about my disinhibited eating and weight gain. 2- Gratitude and reciprocity are big deals ... Read more
Reframing eating challenges
Monday, June 10, 2013      8 comments

Upon seeing yet another carton of ice cream gracing the freezer with its presence (the 3rd brought into this house by my family in the last week), I immediately met with doom. “Why are they doing this to me?” Ice cream’s a bigtime red light bi... Read more
Sugar is not love
Tuesday, June 04, 2013      6 comments

I want sugar. Actually, I want love. For me, when I want comfort, when I feel sad or ashamed or bad about myself or my life, I get a message saying "SUGAR! NOW!!!" Sugar is not love. Sugar will make me feel better momentarily. Unti... Read more
I am whole. I am complete.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013      12 comments

My 2 new mantras. They're not BS, either. I don't need *convincing*, just reminders. That's why yoga's so crucial for me: it connects me to that truth. When I'm conscious of my wholeness and completeness, I don't need to eat to fill ... Read more
I'm sitting on the dressing room floor
Wednesday, May 22, 2013      6 comments

"I am sitting on the floor of a department store fitting room, disgusted, fatter than I have been in years. My renewed vow to step up my workouts as a way of turning things around is being undermined by the unrelenting mockery of my aching shou... Read more
Maintenance Lesson #4: Paint a new picture
Friday, May 03, 2013      9 comments

Two of the most powerful weapons in my weight loss and maintenance arsenal were Combat and running: both phenomenal calorie torchers, endorphin releasers, and THE primary means of my self-development & -empowerment. They became part of my i... Read more
Maintenance Lesson #3: Deal with reality as it is
Thursday, May 02, 2013      6 comments

There were a few things about my most recent employment that made the experience awesome. For instance, my coworkers shared a couple gold nuggets of wisdom with me, and, I assure you, I threw out a few of my own. Two in particular are relevant... Read more
Well lookee at that
Saturday, April 27, 2013      9 comments

Go me! Goal Cals: 1330-1680 Actual: 1447 Goal Fat: 30-65 g Actual: 54 Goal Saturated Fats: 0-25 g Actual: 16 Goal Carbs: 150-273 g Actual: 185 ... Read more
Clothes shopping today
Friday, April 26, 2013      3 comments

I talked about my need for a new wardrobe here: http://www.sparkpeople.c
ndividual.asp?blog_id=5317092 . That need became even more pronounced yesterday with an at-home donation pickup from some c... Read more
Maintenance Lesson #1 revised
Thursday, April 25, 2013      3 comments

In my Maintenance Lesson #1 blog (
al.asp?blog_id=5202085 ), I spoke about guilt signalling my eating for the wrong reasons. Time to revise that lesson! Last night was on... Read more
binge urge busted
Saturday, April 13, 2013      7 comments

If you're not alert, the binge urges can creep up so sneakily, you're not fully aware of your *choice* to give into them. I don't plan binges. I never, EVER buy food with the intent to binge on it. I don't sit around at night saying, "Hmm... Read more
In dire need of a new wardrobe
Tuesday, April 09, 2013      9 comments

Because I'm poor and frugal; strive to reject materialistic ideals; and was raised to behave in the following way, I don't get rid of clothes until they wear out. When I was overweight, that meant the inner thigh area of my pants rubbing until ... Read more
to quote Britney Spears:
Friday, March 29, 2013      5 comments

"Oops, I did it again." I binged very, very badly. Like "I'm gonna see a number in the 160s next time I step on the scale" badly. Like I believe "I'm NEVER going to weigh an acceptable amount again" badly. Like "I need counseling because... Read more

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