i really deserve my own self pity!!! i am at a loss, only not weight loss!!!
I am feeling very very let down and discouraged this morning. I am hurting in my left hip so bad and I dont know what is causing it, but, I know I didnt feel like walking this morning.
Where that pain came from, out of no where, I have no ide... Read more
im still standing, on a sore foot, but....
My foot is aching. I was up and down all day yesterday and I guess keeping my shoe on all day made it swell a little, last night I wore my bone stimulator to bed and had a very very early morning.
After little to no sleep last night, I got u... Read more
it is again
went over my calories big time today, well, about 600 calories, that is pretty big huh, but what put me over?
that dang nutella?
hmm, nooo, not today.
the two slices of bacon on my sandwich? or the fact that i had a sandwich for both lunch... Read more
just go, get out the door, dont hang around now, you're not welcome anymore!!!
Food, weight, bad thoughts, and Nutella......
Wishing the heat and rain would just take a chill p... Read more
a circle must have a crack for us to get back inside
So....today was weigh in day...key music of doom!!!
Yes, indeed, I gained weight. I am not surprised, disappointed of course, in myself, in my choices.
I knew I had gained weight.
I have gained 13 pounds since sometime around March. Coul... Read more
these old bones will tell you...
""These old bones will tell your story
These old bones will never lie
These old bones will tell you surely
What you can't see with your eye
These old bones, I shake and rattle
These old bones, I toss and roll
And it's all in how they... Read more
so its soft, get used to it!!!
So, I just returned from my ortho appt and lab workup and shopping and returning two items to two different stores and picking up the mail and I am slap wore out!!!
The broken foot--here it is in a nutshell.
The tiny little piece of bone tha... Read more
i remembered myself today
I first want to say thanks to all who have shown concern about me the last few days.
My blogs might have concerned some of you, and if they did, then I guess I did what I set out to do.
Reach down into a dark place. To pour myself and my th... Read more
did you hear the news!!!!
The bit of news I heard last night, I decided was really good. I decided it was for the best that everything happens for a reason and that it is time to let bygones be gone.
I awoke this morning the sun was shining, I took my vitamins and mad... Read more
the here and there and everywhere thinking about stuff blog
Foot has hurt pretty much all day, I guess I shouldnt have gone to the walking track.
about 4 laps in and it really began to ache, I mighta pushed. Today I really needed it....but I didnt get it.
Walking was the one thin... Read more
im the conductor on the crazy train, full speed ahead!!!!!
Last night I attended my sons 2 year celebration/ NA meeting. I sat there listening to some of the stories from these people and thinking, add drugs and this is my life.
F' ed up!!!!
I heard one girl share her story, a story so horrifying t... Read more
when am i gonna go forward the way i once did
Something has changed. I just dont think I remember how to do it anymore.
I think all this time that has passed has been too much for me to remember.
How do I get back to where I was?
How do I get my mind to think the way I did in January... Read more
rock bottom aint no place to be!!! (and i can see it from here)!!!
I give up on trying to figure out how many calories I should be eating daily.
And I also give up on figuring out how to stay under that limit, once I do figure it out!!!
I reset my calories recently, as SP had set them somewhere around 1900,... Read more