feeling numb
Friday, May 31, 2013      1 comments

Things had been fairly bad for me the past several weeks and I expected things to continue going downhill for another few weeks at the least. Less than a week ago I decided to go back to taking some vitamins after being off them for 3 months ju... Read more
Tuesday, May 14, 2013      2 comments

It has been a rough week and I know the upcoming few weeks will be worse. I wish I could crawl into a hole and let the world pass me by.... Read more
Wednesday, April 24, 2013      3 comments

I'm really frustrated today. I finally got to the point where I was again willing to try to find a psychiatrist to work with. I ended up with a list of 5 that are in-network providers for my insurance. Of those 5, two work at a university and... Read more
on the edge again
Friday, January 13, 2012      1 comments

I've had eating problems all of my life. Most of the time I've been a bit overweight, but there have been times I was underweight as well. Leading up to those times I would get frustrated with myself, almost to the point of hating myself, and us... Read more
Decisions and Fear
Thursday, February 18, 2010      2 comments

These past three months I've been involved in a study for new medicine. Next Tuesday I will be done with the study and no longer taking the study medication. The psychiatrist involved in the study has taken the time to really understand me and... Read more
how much more?
Tuesday, February 09, 2010      4 comments

i just don't know how much more of this i can deal with. i am getting more and more depressed each day and the obsessive suicidal thoughts are taking over hours of every day and more hours at night. i'm only sleeping five hours at the most and... Read more
February 2010 Goals
Monday, February 01, 2010      0 comments

My goals for this month are to strictly follow my meal plans at least five days a week, exercise at least 800 calories a day six days a week, spend a minimum of three nights this month with friends, wash my face before bed at least five nights a... Read more
Stuck In My Usual Weight Loss Cycle
Tuesday, January 26, 2010      3 comments

I'm one of those people that always wants to be perfect at everything and sees things in mainly black and white. This has always been obvious when looking at my diet and exercise habits. I'll either eat whatever I want and gain whatever amount... Read more