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Christmas Eve
Wednesday, December 24, 2014      1 comments

Today is Christmas Eve. It is the promise of hope, salvation, redemption, peace, and eternal love. In my head, I just keep hearing, "He is coming!" in a very loud whisper. Tonight the birth of the Christ child will be a reminder that miracles... Read more
Tuesday, December 23, 2014      1 comments

I am so tired of having to deal with certain people. I can be nice to them instead of choking them, like I want to, but then I eat stuff I shouldn't out of frustration and to feel like I am in control of something. I know that I have just as ... Read more
Starting over
Friday, December 19, 2014      5 comments

I first joined Spark People in 2008. I came back briefly in 2011. Didn't do much, but popped in now and then. Now I'm back again. In 2008, I quit logging in when I was 2 pounds away from being under 200 pounds for the first time in 10 or 15 y... Read more
Saturday, April 26, 2008      3 comments

I've been thinking about this for a while. I don't know how to be a healthy weight. I KNOW how to be fat, I KNOW how to be obese. Being a healthy weight is like visiting a foreign country without a passport and not understanding one word of t... Read more
Wednesday, April 02, 2008      3 comments

Well, I'm home now. That's the good part. I'm back on track calorie wise today. I exercised today. I didn't smoke today. That's all good. But after 5 days of completely blowing all the goals I had set for myself, I came home feeling like c... Read more
I blew it!
Friday, March 28, 2008      3 comments

Thank God tomorrow is another day. Thursday I went over on my calories by more than 400. I also started smoking again. Tomorrow I'll try to get back on track calorie wise. The not smoking will have to wait until next week. I can only deal w... Read more
Saturday, March 22, 2008      1 comments

I have officially been a Sparker for a month today. I'm not going to weigh myself until Monday, as that is my usual day to weigh myself. However, I've been reflecting on all the changes I have made in my life during the past month. They have ... Read more
Saturday, March 15, 2008      1 comments

I am just so excited! Every time I come to Spark People, I get more and more motivated. It's just blowing my mind! Always before, after being 3 weeks into a program, I would feel angry and deprived, even though I would stick with it for a whi... Read more
Licking the Spoon
Saturday, March 15, 2008      1 comments

I had peanut butter on my toast this morning. I always knew that I used less than the suggested 2-tablespoon serving, but I actually measured it this morning. I used less than 1 tablespoon on 2 pieces of toast. I figured if I was going to tra... Read more
Dinner at Ryan's
Wednesday, March 05, 2008      3 comments

Well, tonight was my first true test at eating out. I am really proud of myself. I even had a piece of fudge for dessert and still staid VERY close to my calorie goal. I'm not feeling nearly so deprived and angry now. It's good knowing that ... Read more