"Forced Fasting"...of sorts; and lost my voice
Got a cold this past Wednesday. Ate that day, but since then I've barely had a bite of anything, all because I simply don't like to plug myself up with food when I'm sick, plus it seems to always make me get sicker when I do eat. I wanted to get... Read more
One more hour, one more hour...
Not probably what one would think...
The "one more hr, one more hr" relates to one more hour till I can go pick up my paycheck. I simply can't wait! I have worked sooo hard for the past 3 weeks! (Two weeks for this paycheck, 1 week for the... Read more
Have been going through HELL for the longest, longest, LONGEST time. For almost 2 entire years now. Have been living in hideous survival financial ruin mode for just about 2 yrs now. It has RUINED my ability to function normally. I have simply N... Read more
I'm just in limbo, living in limbo, "trying" to get things together. My place is still a mess, a disaster, I'm (Thank God!!!!) working 2 jobs. Still not enough to pay all bills just yet but I'm at least I'm no longer needing to seriously conside... Read more
Love, Love, LOVE my 2nd job!
Just don't know what else to say--I love it so much.
Back off the holiday hiatus & I'm definitely stil... Read more
Things have been okay for the past week or so
Sorry about that... I've needed to write another blog entry here in order to offset my last dire one. Just been too busy to get to it, plus I didn't know what to use for a "subject title" of the blog. (Talk about being nutso or whatever!) I just... Read more
I've been so scared...
OMG I've been so scared. First I started to get sick--a cold. But every cold I've had for yrs on end now has seemed to be *beyond horrible*--lasting for well over a 10 days, 2 weeks etc. Plus if not that, they go directly into my chest & lungs &... Read more
I feel like I'm falling apart, breaking open in a million little pieces & can't pick the pieces up off the floor. I'm too overwhelmed...
I could point to a thousand and one things: my room's a DISASTER after I had someone stay here & help w... Read more
Well geez... (a miracle)
So after my huge rant yesterday, the "come down on myself hard about the job thing," I get a call today entirely out-of-the-blue asking if I can perhaps come in later today to fill-in for someone who can't make it. Wow! Talk about miracles... No... Read more
Can't believe I didn't check my email from 2 days ago. I could have WORKED yesterday!! GDIT! I sooooooo needed the extra day of work. My 2nd job is in hiatus for this coming week for the holiday, & then it will be in hiatus for 2 more weeks over... Read more
Supremely Grateful, In Awe, Astounded, Surreal...
I have managed to get a 2nd job right now!
It is from God, the Universe, My Angels, my Mother and my Father... Read more
Got to get another job, got to get another job, got to get another job...
Damn!! Why oh why or WHY am I STILL not making enough money to support myself???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! How can this possibly f'king be???????!!!!!!!! I worked my a*ss off going to massage school to get certified, licensed, then worked like h*ll t... Read more
My mother has passed away (sob)
Just writing out the title above to this blog tears me apart. I last blogged August 5th, my mother passed away August 10th. (Two months shy of her 94th birthday.) Through the grace of GOD I was able to be there with her, not only at the very en... Read more
Showering My Mother with LIGHT & LOVE
My mother's in the hospital again via ambulance, (for the trilllionth, zillionth time in the world), but I don't believe she's going to make it, pull through this time. She's totally jaundiced, yellow eyes and everything according to my sister a... Read more
So totally confused...constant Miracles now??
I've been in such hell, such torturous mental & financial pain for so long. I just don't understand how things can turn so quickly, so much "on a dime." On Monday I'd given up, I was going to be homeless and that was that. I was looking in the p... Read more