Struggling to accept my new reality
So I've been off work now for eight months with no end in sight. Unpaid. Issues with the insurance, which claims not enough info from my medical team. My doctor is insensed, and the insurance now has 85 pages of medical notes to go through. Well... Read more
Wonderful Affirming Day with fellow Sparker
I was lucky enough to meet fellow Sparker Justyna7 through staying at her B&B, and am blessed to count her among my family now. I was so happy to be able to get together with her Tuesday, to chat, swim, and generally catch up (we haven't seen ea... Read more
Using a walker and loving it! (Plus BECK Day 4)
I have had huge issues with back pain for the past 12-18 months (maybe more!). At first, scans showed abnormalities that the oncologists were pretty sure was bone mets, but no it's just degeneration because of all the extra weight, lack of exerc... Read more
So my DH and I have set a huge, enormous, gigantuan goal for ourselves, and particularly for myself. We want to walk the northern route of the CAmino de Santiago in 2018, for our 30th wedding anniversary (not the actual anniversary, which is in ... Read more
The Beck Diet Solution = the last step to beating cancer
At least, that's how I see it. My treatments are over except for the meds and hormones, which can make me gain weight. My weight has more than doubled since I started this cancer thing a dozen years ago. So this is it. Getting back to a healthy... Read more
The walls are tumbling down
I've been decluttering lately, sorting through the detritus of my life as it is. And look... there! It's the Spark that has been buried for the past few months, still burning a slow, low burn, but not completely out!
I've often thought of m... Read more
180 Degree Shift
Wow. I met with my doctor yesterday, and am now in a 180 degree shift on everything.
She is strongly suggesting that I take 3-6 months off work, to be able to focus on getting myself back together, addressing those things I've shoved aside ... Read more
Triple Challenge - Update on Healthy Habits Reset Challenge
Lots of catching up to do with my Triple Challenge. Here we go with the Healthy Habits Reset Challenge.
Day 4 – Friday
So Day 4 was about finding a buddy. I have a little difficulty with consistently supporting my buddies in the past ... Read more
Memory is hunger
“There are so many sorts of hunger…. Memory is hunger.”
– Ernest Hemingway, A Moveable Feast
This quote speaks so much to me, because my hunger is based on the memory of what I miss... being active, spontaneous, sexy, alive! Reaching many... Read more
Triple Challenge - Day 3 (Thursday)
Day three, so far, so good!
The Healthy Habits Reset is all about getting focus and setting a goal. You may remember that ultimately I want to be happier, which I guess is code for getting out of my head so much and being less stressed. So... Read more
Triple Challenge - Day 2
Second day of my triple challenge. So far, so good.
The Healthy Habits Reset asks that I commit to doing just one thing each day toward reaching my goal. With a goal of being happier and worrying less, one thing I will do for at least 10 mi... Read more
Triple Challenge - Day 1
So September 1st I joined three challenges (well, two SP challenges, and one personal one).
The first is The Healthy Habits Reset, and the first day I was to identify one goal to work on, and write down three reasons why I want to reach th... Read more
My Wellness Vision Statement
So, starting fresh means revisiting my vision for this ongoing wellness project I’ve undertaken. SparkPeople calls it a “Weight Loss Vision Statement”, but I prefer to focus on wellness rather than just weight loss (which is what SP says to do ... Read more
Striving to see clearly
The past couple of days have been spent in trying to get practical with things so that they work for the way both DH and I work. I'm all about planning and being organized (and in my head), and he's all about being spontaneous and is very visual... Read more
Waking up to reality
I'm just now beginning to realize the cost of cancer for me and my family, how far down the slope I've gone and how far up I have to go to get back to some semblance of living.
So far, I've more than doubled my weight and can't walk because... Read more