The last two days have been a nightmare, foodwise. I've eaten everything that I shouldn't, nothing that I should, and not a single serving of fruit in the last 48 hours. To put it plainly, I've been binging.
It all culminated today with a ... Read more
My First 5K
Okay, okay. It's nothing so exciting as an actual RACE. But tonight, for the very first time, I actually walked a route that is exactly 5 km long. I can honestly say that I don't think I've ever walked that long of a distance in my LIFE withou... Read more
My Closet Is Very Bare...
I spent an hour today trying on every item in my closet and facing the music. You see, I'm what I like to call a 'hopeful shopper'. I refuse to buy clothes in my size, because I plan to lose weight, and what's the point of buying clothes that ... Read more
I Just Did A Push-up!
Actually, it was two push-ups. I know, I know. It's not THAT big of a deal.
But growing up, I was always that girl in gym class. You know, the one who signs up for a weight lifting class full of senior boys just to avoid team sports in th... Read more
Time for a Little TMI..
So right now I'm not sure if I love or hate being female. I've slaved away (okay, maybe not nearly as hard as I could have) at eating healthily and doing at least a little exercise every day all week, and what do I have to show for it? 0.4 lb... Read more
How Could I Have Possibly...
...Forgotten how delicious healthy food is? Seriously! For months now, I've eaten, well, junk. Pasta, cookies, chips, pancakes, cheesecake. Everything that I knew was terrible for me, especially in the quantities I was eating it.
Why di... Read more
Wake Up Call.
So I started reading The Spark last night. I preordered it before it even came out, and it's been sitting on my bookshelf since then. Okay, I take that back. It's been sitting on my floor, underneath a pile of my textbooks and class notes, its... Read more
That's how long I've been sitting at this same weight. On August 1st, 2009, I weighed in at 182.2 lbs. I stepped on the scale two days ago, March 27th 2010, and what number did I see staring back up at me in glowing blue numerals? 182.4.
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Busy Busy Busy!
195 days to go, and it's my first day back to school for Winter Quarter today... And here I am on Sparkpeople instead of working on my online classes! Typical me, but the deadline for my online work isn't for a few days, so I'm sure I'll manage... Read more
What Am I So Afraid Of?
197 days left to go, and I'm still on track, for the most part. I'm avoiding the scale like the plague for a week or so though, just so I don't get myself off track before I even start.
In a blog post a long time ago, I mentioned that I te... Read more
Stop. Breathe in. Breathe out. Reboot.
Ironic, really, that my last blog entry was about how I've been backsliding, teeter-tottering, and losing the same 3 lbs over and over and over again. Because now, 3 months later, that's still the case. Since August- oh yes, it's really been al... Read more
Why do I do this to myself?
I've been backsliding in a major way in the last week. To be totally honest, I've been struggling for the last couple months, gaining and losing the same 3 or 4 pounds for the first 3 weeks of the month before realizing that I really don't want ... Read more
Time to get honest.
In my last blog post, I mentioned how lately, when I eat a food that's nutritionally unsound, or just plain high-calorie, I look at the nutrition stats, acknowledge them, and then shrug it off and gobble down a huge helping anyway. Last night, ... Read more
I. Am. Done.
I'm done making excuses. I'm done living the way that I am, with my feet on a footstool, my eyes glued to a computer screen, a bowl of pasta in one hand, and a loaded fork halfway to my mouth in the other. I'm sick of this, sickened by it, and ... Read more
Itty Bitty Pity Parties!
My biggest barrier to getting healthy and staying on track, it seems, is my tendency to make excuses for myself, and to talk myself into being miserable and lazy. "Oh, I worked an 8-hour shift yesterday, I don't have the energy to exercise toda... Read more