life sucks
Friday, April 30, 2010      7 comments

my husband is dieing. I am walking around the apartment at 12 midnight and just feel so alone and scared. How can a person go through this?... Read more
not fair
Friday, April 09, 2010      4 comments

so next week I will be a one year survivor from breast cancer. I was hoping life would get back to normal. Now, my husband is sick. He is seeing so many specialists to find out what they can do. Looks like his liver is starting to fail. I have n... Read more
half way there
Friday, December 11, 2009      5 comments

today is my birthday and I am going over to get a radiation treatment. The one great thing about it is, I am half way finished. Please make this all worth while. Let it be cured. So tired of being scared and angry. 2010, Let's start all over aga... Read more
turtle time
Wednesday, October 28, 2009      2 comments

I know that it is taking time, turtle time, to lose weight. I will continue to keep at it. By this time next year I will be down 47 pounds if I continue at what I think of as a tiny bit of lose. I do want to lose more and will get better at all... Read more
Monday, October 05, 2009      2 comments

so today I weighed and measured myself, truthfully. Funny how even to yourself you try to lie. I put my weight lose against my weight to lose and saw that at this rate it will take me to next year to lose all the weight I want to lose. You know ... Read more
September 11
Friday, September 11, 2009      3 comments

Today is my wedding anniversay. I have been married 39 years. Many years before "9/11". I know that today is the anniversary of 9/11, but it is also other peoples birthdays and anniversaries. So for us I would like to say, I still want to be hap... Read more
use measures more
Wednesday, September 09, 2009      2 comments

today my scale showed a little gain. I think I have been eyeballing to small. Time to make sure to use the scale more and spoons. Did it today. Keep going.... Read more
first week back
Monday, September 07, 2009      1 comments

I did it. The first week and I lost 4 pounds. That is with being to weak and dizzy to get excercise. Once these effects wear off I will start to go walking and the pounds will just melt away. I am very proud of myself.... Read more
almost 1 week
Sunday, September 06, 2009      0 comments

I weigh and measure myself tomorrow. Of course I will not be where we all want to be right away. I do feel that I have done a very good job this last week. Only 51 more weeks to go. Now that I do not have to have chemo anymore I have felt lighte... Read more
A New Year
Sunday, January 04, 2009      0 comments

I really do feel good about myself today. I know I can do this. I am on a journey to better health. Along the way I will lose weight, gain confidence, look better and be happier.... Read more
welcoming myself back
Monday, December 29, 2008      0 comments

I just seemed to give up on myself for some reason. I have reached my greatest weight including when I was pregnant. I opened my eyes today and told myself that I do not want to look like this anymore. There really is only one way to do that, ea... Read more