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Uncharted Teritory
Saturday, August 10, 2013      0 comments

I feel like I'm at a kind of cross roads in my self health journey here. I have lost 99% of the weight I originally set out to lose this year. I'm back to where I was in my "motivational picture". I feel VERY healthy, I feel like my body is very... Read more
Low, low, low self esteem
Saturday, February 16, 2013      6 comments

"Hello darkness my old friend..." I'm huge. I have let my eating go out of control. I'm feeling like I will never be able to truly change. I'm terrified to step on the scale, I just don't want to know. I don't feel motivated by pictures of ... Read more
Endless Cycle :(
Monday, December 24, 2012      0 comments

I'm back, and I'm at least 10 lbs heavier. I managed to dismantle all the gains I made over the summer during the colder months. Can't say I'm surprised, I've been here at least 3 or 4 times before, it's no less depressing though. I knew I... Read more
And now back to your regularly scheduled programing...
Sunday, August 12, 2012      0 comments

Since last post things continued to not go well. Scale kept going up, I was very distraught because I didn't understand how I could gain 6 lbs in a matter of two weeks. I didn't change my eating, I was still exercising...nothing was making sense... Read more
A setback? : /
Saturday, July 21, 2012      2 comments

Weigh in this week says I gained a pound and a half. Was supposed to lose a pound and get to goal. Trying not to feel so sad about it. I did increase my calories this week like it was suggested, I don't feel like I went overboard ... Read more
This really shouldn't be a problem...
Monday, July 16, 2012      1 comments

I feel kind of silly that this is kind of a problem. Since I started swimming, my calories burned per week has jumped, and the diet/exercise tracker said "hey, you should be eating more calories per week". It bumped my daily calories up to 1550 ... Read more
The last week, my goal in view...
Saturday, July 14, 2012      1 comments

161.5 lbs That's my weigh in this morning...I have 1.5 lbs more to loose and it's my "last" week. I am so determined to be extra good this week. Every time I have used Sparkpeople in the past, I did manage to lose weight but I don't think ... Read more
Oh shut up already!
Friday, July 13, 2012      1 comments

Another great week for me, diet, exercise and mood all in control. I think after 15+ years of trying to improve my health, I'm finally getting the hang of this. One of the most important things I've learned (the hard way) is that you HAVE to do ... Read more
I can do this!
Saturday, July 07, 2012      2 comments

WOW...just wow. Swimming is making all the difference for me! This has been the first week my emotions didn't take a dive. I swam everyday except Wednesday this week. It does NOT feel like a chore to go. Like I said before, it's all down here fr... Read more
What a difference a day makes
Saturday, June 30, 2012      3 comments

The emotional roller coaster was very hard this week. I was on the down ever since last weekend, I started to feel like I wasn't making any progress. I beat myself up over a few diet choices. I still stayed in my allotted calorie budget, but I h... Read more
Good progress...and doubt
Saturday, June 23, 2012      0 comments

It's been two weeks and I've lost 4 lbs, its a great start! But the mind game continues, I'm starting to doubt that it's going to continue like this. There's really no reason for it, I know what I was able to do before, I've been following the r... Read more
I followed the rules, and I did see a difference!
Saturday, June 16, 2012      3 comments

Lost 2 lbs! Week 1 is grateful to be past the start. Getting going was tough, as it always is. But at least I've got some momentum now, I feel different, I have lost 2 lbs, clothes are starting to fit nicer...all very nice things! I kn... Read more
Starting to feel the change
Wednesday, June 13, 2012      1 comments

Feels like I'm on the upswing! I've done great on my diet so far (5 days in), I need to keep it up. It's starting to get easier, I'm getting used to the adjustment and I'm just starting to feel different. I don't think I've lost anything yet, bu... Read more
Rough Start
Sunday, June 10, 2012      2 comments

Yesterday was my "Day 1". Now usually my first days on a new weight loss push are like "Yeah! I'm going to do this! This isn't so bad!"...this time wasn't like that. I struggled through the whole day. I agonized over what I was eating, I conside... Read more
Never ending cycle
Saturday, June 09, 2012      0 comments we go again. The motivation to do something about the weight I gained since last summer has finally surfaced. I've been in this yearly cycle of losing and gaining weight ever since I was a teenager and became aware of my self image. Th... Read more