What does "realistic" mean, anyway?
For those of us who are perfectionists, this is a rhetorical question. I'm not sure I have an answer. Here I am, back in gear on Spark, and I have laid down some pretty stringent guidelines for my participation. I get sucked in to all the points... Read more
The reverse psychology of my fat cells
So yet again, I am learning the lesson that if I over-do it, if I cut too far back on the calories and stay super-strict about it, those pesky fat cells, those stubborn pounds become MORE stubborn.
This is a pattern that has happened each ... Read more
Moving right along...
Remember that old song from the Muppet Movie?
Well, that's how things are going this week. My triathlon training group started on Monday, and it has really helped me get back i... Read more
Ready - Set - Take Your Mark - Okay? - Now? - How about now?
That is what this spring has felt like -- every time I feel mentally ready to get back on track, get into my training program, and tidy up my diet, circumstances make that unusually difficult. Then, when things calm down circumstantially, I'm fe... Read more
Lighten up -- I need some room to breathe!
So the command in the this blog title is an order to my inner voice -- you know that voice, the one that nags and makes you feel bad about what you're NOT doing instead of acknowledging all the things you ARE doing?
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It's time to step up.
One foot in front of the other, keep pedaling, move along...all those mantras have started to sound meaningless, and it feels real important right now to focus on what they really mean. It has been a rough winter, and I am in a place to take a g... Read more
engine stalled. anyone know a mechanic?
Well, I find myself making blog entries at two times in this journey: when I'm feeling successful and when I've stalled. This entry falls into the latter category. I keep thinking that there's got to be a reason that I sabotage myself -- it's pr... Read more
i'm exhausted already!
This week I have seriously increased my fitness training and I'm so tired! My goal is to do two workouts in each discipline (swim, bike, run), and I'm a little worried about burnout. I have done pretty intense workouts every day this week, and e... Read more
the importance of routine
So my new challenge in attaining balance is how to manage those times when my routine is thrown off track. Two weeks ago was Spring Break, and then after a 3 1/2 day return to work, I had a 4 1/2 day Easter break. As if that weren't enough, we w... Read more
working working working
So two weeks ago I finally went to the nutritionist, and she is amazing. First of all, she is brutally honest, which I needed. Second of all, she gets the whole "I've come so far" thing, without letting me use that as an excuse to develop new un... Read more
what do i want?
This question: "What do I want?" made me burst into tears when my nutritionist asked it on Monday evening.
She asked me what I like to eat (salty and crunchy) and looked at my food logs. She said "Why are you eating all these sweets? Why a... Read more
Obsessed? or just Determined?
Well, the scale is perched on the edge of the plateau peering over. One little nudge should send it off, but it is clinging for dear life -- one tenth of a pound down, then back up. I can visualize it teetering there.
So I have become obse... Read more
Argggh! (and Self-Pep Talk)
What's a girl gotta do to lose weight around here?
This week has been so great! I have successfully added strength training to my regimen and jump-started my off-season training. I showed self-restraint and good planning all week for break... Read more
From up here I can see the world
Rebecca had always thought of herself as a “big girl.” Her mother was a diminutive 5”2’, and pictures of her mother holding her as a baby made Rebecca think later, “I’m bigger than she is!” The binging started at about age ten, when her parents ... Read more
Gift of time and question of goals
Ok, I know that I shouldn't reinforce the perception that teachers get an inordinate amount of time off, but I have to say, I feel so lucky to have this time. In these days between Christmas and New Year's, I have spent a lot of time just sittin... Read more