Why does everything seem so much harder?
I'm having a bad day.
And I don't just mean that the car didn't start, or my computer crashed, or anything like that. I kind of wish that it was that "easy."
I'm missing my brother today.
And I'm not sure why today is bothering m... Read more
Starting Over - Again.
Wow. I feel like all I do is reiterate the same blog over and over. I was on a good track, and now I'm not. I used to be within 10 lbs of my goal weight, and now I'm not. I used to be working out 5-6 days/week and now I'm not. I used to wea... Read more
I'm feeling lost at sea right now.
I remember when I began this journey. I remember starting to work out - 20 minutes of walking, 3 days a week. I remember learning to control my food. I started on the South Beach diet. And although kno... Read more
Biggest Loser & Tears
Here I am - AGAIN!
I've gained basically 20 lbs back from my lowest weight. TWENTY POUNDS!!!
I'm sitting here watching Biggest Loser and just crying. Crying at the disappointment that I have in myself. Crying at feeling like a Loser... Read more
Exercise, dogs & needles - not a good mix
I just need to vent.
I've had a tough go of it the last year. In September, I had a blood clot. Because of the blood clot, I was rendered completely inactive for a week and was put on life-long anticoagulant medication; something usually ... Read more
So much for my every day blog!
So St. Patty's Day I told myself I would blog on here every day.
Yeah.. that hasn't worked for me.
But that being said, things have been going better!
Last week, Sunday was a bit tough. I taught some dance classes, although it i... Read more
03/17/2010: St. Patty's Day
Okay, so I've been at this weight loss/healthy living thing for about 3 years now. I was at my best October of 2008. Funny how the lowest weight my scale has seen was only on ONE day and it happened to be the day of my high school reunion. Go... Read more
Let's call a rose a rose, shall we?
And I know that those words are swear words on this site, but I have to face the truth. I've failed. I've failed me. I've failed my teams. I've failed my sparkfriends. I've just failed. I've gained back 13 pounds frommy l... Read more
This is pitiful. Last year in January I wrote a blog about how upset I was that I let myself fall out of my healthy habits and regressed back to old unhealthy ones over the holidays that had me gaining weight.
So why, if I was so mad at my... Read more
The Big "O"
When my youngest child was 1 1/2 years old, it was time to go in for my yearly check up. I did all the wonderful things that you get to do at that yearly appointment-blood pressure, temp, weight, height, general questionnaire. The nurse left t... Read more
Hopefully the beginning
So, I have one more hour before the battle begins. I'm disappointed with myself, I'm disappointed with my choices & I... Read more
I'm writing this knowing that it isn't going to change anything, but just feeling so frustrated that I need to get it out - AGAIN.
I was not such a good Sparker this Holiday season. I hit my lowest weight last October (funny, it happened t... Read more
What did I do?
I am so disappointed with myself.
First, I was already having a hard time staying focused once I got past my High School Reunion. I started getting spottier with my workouts & especially with my eating, but at least I was still involved. ... Read more
So I've had a tough go of it the past 6-8 weeks. I've blogged a lot about it. I've received supportive, negative, contemplative, and understanding comments about it. I've cried about it. And last week, I came to an eye-opening realization th... Read more
Last Page »
For those of you who have been checking in on me, I want to let you know that I'm alive and still trying. I have been reading the comments on my blog and on my page and I've been reading the sparkmails, even if I haven't responded, and I really... Read more