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Day 158: It Just Gets Worse

Sunday, June 07, 2015      2 comments

My frame of mind is in such a bad place right now. Almost every day, I just notice more and more how bad it is. I have less and less self confidence (and I had thought it was already pretty low). I dislike my body more and more (which I know I s... Read more

Day 152: How Many Times Can You Hit Rock Bottom?

Monday, June 01, 2015      0 comments

It's been a rough week or so. Things just went from bad to worse. We were on strike for 5.5 weeks and then suddenly ordered back to work by the government (not even going to get into how awful that is). Tough to get back into a work routine... Read more

Day 136: Can't Believe I Did It!

Saturday, May 16, 2015      0 comments

Usually I plan things. Well in advance. But today I went on a whim. I was suddenly compelled to start running again, so I did. I found my Ease Into 5k podcast and I completed Week 1 Day 1. Just like that. I figure I haven't ran in almost 2 ... Read more

Day 134: It's Getting Easier

Thursday, May 14, 2015      2 comments

Yet another day were I had no choice but to eat out, and I chose well once again. I'm getting good at making wise decisions at restaurants, which is something I use to be awful at! I took every restaurant visit as a treat meal, no matter how oft... Read more

Day 131: There's Hope!

Monday, May 11, 2015      2 comments

I feel pretty amazing today. I was nervous about the weekend. I was meeting a friend in Toronto for a comedy night followed by a baseball game the next day. I knew it would mean several meals out, and the possibility of dangerous snacks. ... Read more

Day 124: Don't Break The Seal

Monday, May 04, 2015      5 comments

Not to pick on any particular brand of potato chip... But I am discovering that there is a whole lot of truth to the marketing "Betcha can't eat just one!". And not just for chips. I am now entering my 3rd week on strike, so it's the picket... Read more

Day 123: Back to the Start

Sunday, May 03, 2015      0 comments

Weight-wise, I'm right back where I started the year, 223 lbs. Not impressive in the least. And I'm really feeling it. I feel old, I feel unhealthy, I feel big. I made my goal for May lofty. For each day, 8 glasses of water and 5 different ... Read more

Day 101: Wanting To Not Be Angry

Saturday, April 11, 2015      2 comments

I feel like I'm just angry at the world anymore. I feel like I am so helpless in making things better, and it just makes me angrier. Work makes me angry. There just seems to always be more and more hoops to jump through and less time/energy... Read more

Day 95: A Big Fat Sigh

Sunday, April 05, 2015      0 comments

*sigh* That's the big fat one. The last few days have been disastrous. The last week I guess really. We've eaten out several times too many, had nachos and ice cream and chocolate. Not good. And of course the scale has gone up. So while ju... Read more

Day 89: No, I Haven't Disappeared

Monday, March 30, 2015      1 comments

All goes well, busy as always. My March goal of eating SANE 4 days a week was definitely a good one. It was tricky at times, but I did it. I also went down on the scale every week. Not a lot (I'm down to 215.6 as of last Wednesday), but I'm... Read more

Day 75: I Wish I Could Bottle Up This Feeling!

Monday, March 16, 2015      1 comments

It's been a crazy week. Two Fridays ago, I got sick. It got really bad. I never take sick days, but I was off for a day and a half (I also never leave early, but I felt brutal). DH was worried it may have become meningitis since a co-worker... Read more

Day 67: So Much For High Gear...

Sunday, March 08, 2015      1 comments

I have hit a new kind of shame. Friday was a pizza and ice cream night. And I woke up feeling such shame in myself for succumbing yet again to a lack of self-control. Usually after a binge, I feel resolve to do better. This time, I just fel... Read more

Day 60: Kicking It Into High Gear

Sunday, March 01, 2015      1 comments

I've had two months of learning good habits, it is now time to boost my efforts so I can see more visual physical results. My goal for March is to eat SANE 4 days/week. (SANE as in following the eating plan in the book The Calorie Myth by J... Read more

Day 53: I'm Going To Talk About My Butt

Sunday, February 22, 2015      0 comments

This year has been a bit of an experiment for me. I've been 'trying' to lose weight for the better part of 16 years, and all I've done is yo-yo up and down, with a net gain of about 65 lbs in that time. Generally when I get the motivation to sta... Read more

Day 49: Something From Nothing

Wednesday, February 18, 2015      2 comments

Foo Fighters song stuck in my head all day. So here I go. Scale wasn't a great number this morning, but it wasn't horrific either. But I am making a more concerted effort to get under 220 lbs by the end of the month. That's only a loss of m... Read more

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