Yesterday I helped my dad in the garden for a while.
It's the first time I have done anything truly active in a couple of weeks. It was mainly picking up all the bits he had cut off the bushes and cutting them up for the bin.
He strugg... Read more
And i'm probably more sad than this time last week.
Last week I was being practical - waiting to hear he was ok - looking at what I needed to do. Being strong and reassuring my friends and family I was ok.
This week, all of that stress... Read more
I don't know what to do with myself. My long term partner ended our relationship last week and left. It all happened very quickly. I've not been eating all that much and I've taken some time off work to get my head straight. I lost about 6 pound... Read more
The last day or two have been crazy food days.
Yesterday I was bored at work - we're in a rare and very temporary lull in our workload (this ends later this week but hey ho) and I ended up buying two bags of popcorn.
Then we went out f... Read more
I have been checking my weight daily (which isn't a good thing) but I 'weigh in' once a week. I'm about 5 ounces heavier than last week.
I stayed under 21 stone (294 pounds) all week :)
Here's the interesting part - I measur... Read more
Today has been quite challenging.
Work was hard with people arguing with me and one person refusing to sit and talk to me about something - going so far as to ask for one of my colleagues.
I was quite stressed and a little bit offended... Read more
Today wasn't a great day at work - people were edgy and stressy and it rubbed off on me. I thought I upset someone who got cross and grumpy and it didn't help.
I really wanted to raid the tuckshop - not for chocolate - I'm still not eating cho... Read more
I've realised it's important to pay attention.
I've been food tracking for two months - I think I've only missed three or four days in that time. I'm surprised I have stuck with it as I struggle to stick with things like this - maybe it res... Read more
Yesterday got up too late for exercise. Last night was not great food wise and I went to bed late. I set my alarm for 6 and honestly thought I'd end up snoozing like yesterday.
But the body is an amazing thing and woke me up at 5.45 because... Read more
Over the last few years, and the last few months, my weight has been creeping up.
This morning I was 2.5 pounds over 21 stone or 296.5 pounds. EEp
I absolutely refuse to let it go over 300.
I've been a little disheartened lately b... Read more
I've worked lates all this week - and food tracking has gone haywire as has what I've eaten.
My stomach hates me as a result and I daren't even contemplate the scale.
Snacks haven't been too bad. I've stopped eating chocolate all toget... Read more
I've gotten ok at tracking my food. At eating regular meals. At drinking a litre and half of water a day. At knowing when I am snacking.
When I am at work.
I have a week off - and routine and sense seem to have gone out the window.
... Read more
I went to a well known restaurant for dinner last night. I shared a starter with my friend and had a main course to myself.
It was rice, chicken and various vegetables in a soupy sauce. It was nice - wasn't as nice as I had expected but tha... Read more
Snacking seems to be where I have the biggest problems food wise and what's pushing me over the calorie limits.
Today I made myself not snack at work - the problem is boredom more that anything else (and a little bit or paranoia because my ... Read more
I'm almost up to a month with the food tracking.
Foodwise I didn't think I was doing that well - I know I need to cook more and snack less and the tuck shop days at work are a struggle. I've binged a bit too
I have just looked... Read more