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I am what I believe myself to be
Monday, June 13, 2016      2 comments

As a follow-up to my last blog... It will only work if the belief that I am beautiful and love my body completely saturates my self-talk and self-concept. If every time I think "You'll look great when you lose five/ten/xxx pounds" or "keep work... Read more
Love my body
Thursday, June 09, 2016      4 comments

For most of my life, I hated my body. It doesn't work for me to always be putting myself down and telling myself I have to work out or eat a certain way... Read more
I survived the day
Friday, June 03, 2016      4 comments

I almost had a software-induced mental breakdown at work but I didn't. I don't actually understand how I fixed the problem but apparently I did, at least as far as I can tell. I shut my office door for a few minutes and kept myself together even... Read more
Some motivation
Monday, May 16, 2016      2 comments

A good reason to watch my weight even when I am sick of it and even though I am comfortable with the way my body looks now is to make my high level of ph... Read more
The Ataxian
Wednesday, April 20, 2016      4 comments

This is a talk I went to for work this afternoon. (The trailer for the film can be found at .) This man is truly amazing and I am so ... Read more
Today's little thing that makes me happy
Monday, April 18, 2016      4 comments

Is that I found and downloaded a fun song that I heard on Pandora a long time ago and hadn't been able to find until now. ... Read more
Monday, April 11, 2016      4 comments

Last night I dreamt I got a job in Jersey, which is close to my parents and my friends. This morning I woke up here with no hope and my least favorite coworker coming back from a 3.5-week vacation later this week. I'm trying not to be bitter or ... Read more
Thursday, April 07, 2016      4 comments

I can see some progress in my workouts. This morning I noticed that my plank form has improved, and I feel stronger doing it too. I feel good about this because it means that my entire upper body is getting stronger. It's nice because I have bee... Read more
It's Monday
Monday, April 04, 2016      7 comments

I didn't track all weekend. I cried myself to sleep and woke up bawling. This has to end soon. ... Read more
So homesick
Sunday, April 03, 2016      4 comments

I just want to go home. I hate this city, I hate this job. Coming here was a giant mistake, a never ending nightmare. I would rather go back to working at the grocery store if it would mean being with my family. I should never have come here. I ... Read more
What bingeing is to me
Wednesday, March 30, 2016      5 comments

These are my thoughts sparked by some posts in chat: Bingeing is not just overeating or making suboptimal food choices. It's the sense of being outa control and having a 1-track mind, being unable to do anything productive because you're so di... Read more
Today I'm thankful because
Sunday, March 27, 2016      3 comments

I was able to pay my medical bills from when my eyes were inflamed. It is never fun payig medical bills (especially since I believe I should have been given different treatment to start with hence I wouldn't have needed the two expense appointme... Read more
I am so blessed
Friday, March 25, 2016      7 comments

This afternoon I came across some selfies that I took in 2013 when I had chronic hives. It hurts to look at them - I actually cried. I am so very lucky t... Read more
Hard to say
Sunday, March 13, 2016      3 comments

Today I asked my mom and my aunt not to send me packets of precooked/pre seasoned rice and noodles as presents. I know they aren't good for me and they make my stomach feel bad. I felt so ungrateful and it was hard to speak up because I know tha... Read more
What I did right today - March 9
Wednesday, March 09, 2016      3 comments

Today, I prevented myself from scarfing down one of the bagels that Sr Tech brought in "for International Women's Day" yesterday...despite the fact that they're not that tasty and also I don't eat anything she brings in "for the group" because I... Read more

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