Ups and downs
210. 23. 187. Those are the three numbers I'm focusing on right now. 210, the number I'm starting at right now. I've been hovering around that number for a while and it needs to stop. 23, the number of pounds I need to lose to get to my goal wei... Read more
Forgetting the fat girl
I was looking through some old pictures from 2010 the other day and couldn't believe that that girl was ME. 345 pounds, unhappy in who I was and where I was headed. I try to think back to that girl and its really hard. Its painful. I know how u... Read more
Wedding Pics and an update
Well, I haven't updated since.... ooooh..... August. I think its time! I really thought that life after my wedding would slow down, but really, it feels like its only gotten faster! Its been a whirlwind, and even though I wouldn't have it any ot... Read more
Six Weeks till my wedding. AAAHHH!!!!!
I can't believe the big day, that I've been planning for for two years now is almost here! The final touches are being added, the favors and ceremony cards have been printed and just need to be cut and I have one final dress fitting and I'm pret... Read more
Owning up to my mistakes
Scale the past two Mondays after heavy food/alcohol weekends... 195 and 193. By the end of last week I had it down to 188 and then started over with the heavy eating and drinking. Man... that sounds horrible. I need to own up to my mistakes, sin... Read more
Pessimism: Can you change the way you think? Losing some mental weight.
I've been a pessimist for as long as I can remember. Optimism has never come easy for me.
I grew up as a chubby little girl, over 200 lbs by the time I was a freshman in HS. I lived in the country, didn't really have a lot of friends and on... Read more
I'm so glad the holidays are over!!! Mainly because of all the food that's around that I, for some reason, was not able to refrain from this year! However, I am sad that my two weeks of vacation went by so quickly... I spent the majority of it ... Read more
Too much baking is making me fat!
Well, I've decided that I need to come back to spark again. Spark helped me so much my first two years of weight loss that I realized its a great tool to utilize to keep you accountable. Honestly, I got a little discouraged with it because as m... Read more
Sept Recap, Oct Goals and wedding update
Another month come and gone SO fast. Amazing how fast time flies by these days. It doesn't help that I have a wedding to plan for! Eek! We finally found our DJ and I think I found our photographer last night. I also found my dress and it wasn't ... Read more
Which wedding dress!? HELP ME!
I've been looking at wedding dresses off an on for a year now. I've been to 5 different salons and maybe tried on a total of 20 dresses. Feels like a lot... I know people say that you won't feel like they do on TV, and actually, I've felt quite ... Read more
Setting goals again. September will be my month!
Its time to set some goals again. September is right around the corner (ugh!) and I need to see the 170's. These 180's are swell, but they aren't where I want to be. I feel a bit greedy, knowing I've come so far and still want to keep going. Its... Read more
Emergency brain surgery, two years on spark and one year of maintenance.
Well, first of all, I'd like to thank everyone who posted on my last blog. I wrote that blog and about two hours later was driving up to Madison to see my mom, who was having emergency brain surgery. It was so unexpected that I just tossed a bun... Read more
The scale and my inches are climbing, in the wrong direction.
I've lost it. That spark that I had for the first year to year and a half. Now its almost two years since I started this journey and its gone. Two years in 10 days and yes, I'm still 150 pounds down from where I started, but the scale has slowly... Read more
I've lost 150+ pounds...
and I still feel like I'm 330+pounds.
I know how to lose the weight. I've done it. So why is maintaining 50THOUSAND times harder?! I've seen every number in the 180's probably 50 times now... I just can't seem to break past that 181. And n... Read more
I think I just need to be happy with where I am...
Up and down, up and down... the scale will move within a 4-7 pound range depending on what I did the weekend before.
Last weekend, again, saw 181 on the scale. Monday, after having a semi good weekend, not too much over indulgences at all, it... Read more