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To much

Sunday, August 26, 2012      8 comments

Friday I had an MRI and a doctor visit. There is a mass in the bottom of my right foot that is the size of a ping pong ball. They have to operate and remove it . They dont know what the mass is till it is removed so there might be more surgeries... Read more

Saving Life

Sunday, August 19, 2012      10 comments

I have had a fear for many years of seat belts. The fear of being trapped in them because as a fat bodied person they are never comfortable. For me they are tight and cutting. I know what they are designed to but honestly felt like the would hur... Read more

Freeze the world !!

Saturday, August 18, 2012      8 comments

* Freeze * This morning I weighed and I made it to 79 pounds gone ...For a moment I thought "Freeze the world". 287 pounds that is the lowest I have weighed in like 15 years. "Freeze the world" Hold the moment, Feel the accomplishment, Res... Read more

Thawing slowly

Thursday, August 16, 2012      10 comments

* you wake up in a rush, dress and out the door* Wait you forgot to lay out something for dinner. It is 2 pm before you remember this so what do you do. This is how dieting has felt to me for years. No preparation and the stress over what ... Read more

From tears to feet

Tuesday, August 07, 2012      14 comments

If you have never been severely morbidly obese, I am not sure that you can understand what that is like. When you know that you are alone even though the room is full of people. When you you dont want to go out because the world is full of many ... Read more

missing day of prep ...

Sunday, August 05, 2012      5 comments

Everyone talks of tracking and fitness on here However there is a key ingredient that nobody talks about. Maybe it is just me but preparation is the biggest thing for me. When I started the difference was in the preparation. I didnt wake up one ... Read more

Facing fear !!! week 5 sparkler challenge

Thursday, August 02, 2012      9 comments

As a fat bodied person there are so many things that scare the living daylight out of me. All the years of being that way well you all know that takes your confidence, your self worth, and your self pride. When you are more than a hundred pound... Read more

I saw Me

Wednesday, August 01, 2012      5 comments

The last time I saw You was about 4 years ago. I looked at you at thought well this is it because you were sad, tired, frustrated and resolved to a life of a pain. I stood watching as the tears rolled down the cheeks that were was so full of lif... Read more

The Other Numbers

Monday, July 30, 2012      11 comments

Sometimes when looking for motivation I forget the person that is looking back at me from the mirror. The journey that I started a year ago has been long and if you know me then you also know I am the first one to kick my own tail. I am tough ... Read more

July 29 Sparkpeople Virtual 5k Race Day and so much more !!!

Sunday, July 29, 2012      19 comments

First of all you have to understand me to understand this blog. I am the only daughter of a Marine. I am the middle child with an older and younger brother. I am married to an ex Marine ( if there is such a thing). So to say that I know how to ... Read more

RHH : Why take this Journey ?

Saturday, July 28, 2012      8 comments

Why do I take this Journey? What motivates me to get up and do it again in the morning? What do I want ? Hmm well these are all good questions I will grant you that. Sooooo, lets dive into my mind, heart and soul and see if I can come up with th... Read more

Together anything is possible

Wednesday, July 25, 2012      4 comments

As most have read my blog over the past few days Know that I have been working on coming through one of those ugly times in life. Since medications dont work with me when t... Read more

funny shots of new outfit

Tuesday, July 24, 2012      11 comments

I am like every other big bodied person in the world ... white and bright are not my friends but I bought them any way lol ... Remember I dont like pictures lol Read more

Coming through the party ( not a good party either)

Monday, July 23, 2012      5 comments

The not so fun party started on about Wed. The guys came knocking that morning and well it wasnt a fun few days. The guys depression, guilt, anxiety and self pity they drop by from time to time for no reason at all. I know internally when they ... Read more

Dear Nightmare .... it is time

Wednesday, July 18, 2012      13 comments

Dear Nightmare, You and I have this love hate relationship. I remember the day we met I was searching and searching and there you were on the shelf starring at me. The man did his selling point but i didnt listen I wanted just plain white no... Read more


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