UGH depression etc
I can't seem to shake this feeling of deep depression. I got some really bad news from 3 separate friends today, all unrelated, but all really serious.
I spent most of this morning crying.
I really just want to crawl into a ball and... Read more
OK so NOW what???
I started going to online OA meetings 3 weeks ago. I have a sponsor now and have started to do "the work".
Obviously, this entails digging into your emotions. OK, I can do that. I've been doing that for decades, in therapy.
Thing is... Read more
Great start, terrible middle, and long miserable night ahead
This morning started out really great. I weighed in at 397 and I have no idea how long it's been since I've seen that.
The lowest I've been in at least 6 years, possibly 7 or more.
Shortly after, due to some major incom... Read more
You bettah WERK!!
The expression "It works if you work it" has been used so often that sometimes we don't even "hear" it.
The thing is, no matter what our plan is: eating, exercise, relaxation and coping techniques, etc., it won't work unless we actually DO... Read more
Slight derailment. Tracks repaired; proceeding with caution.
OK, so on Oct 21 I got myself back on track.
Tracking food, planning all meals, shopping accordingly. By Friday, Oct 28 morning I'd lost 10 pounds.
More importantly, I had not done any Emotional Eating.
I decided when I start... Read more
Big Girl Wedding Dresses - Fashion Alert
When I got married in 2005, it was so hard to find a plus-size wedding dress that had sleeves. I don't love my arms, and wanted them covered.
After searching salons and looking online, I ended up buying a dress online through a random br... Read more
440 and a new day
I'm so grateful for time moving forward.
Things got progressively worse yesterday, including a trip to the emergency vet for one of my cats. He had emergency surgery a little over a week ago, and started acting oddly last night, so off h... Read more
Life has been chaos for over 30 days now. My eating reflects that.
Yesterday I reached out for help and today it blew up in my face.
I asked my therapist to contact my GP to see if there are any resources here ... Read more
It's been a month since I blogged. My husband was sick for over 2 weeks last months from that horrible respiratory thing, and then I caught it. I haven't been that sick in years. I just finished 2 weeks of antibiotics and while the worst is o... Read more
Just wanted to say hello.
My husband has been sick for about a week with something flu-like. I've caught a milder version of it.
My dr appt that was canceled from the weather is tomorrow. I'm dreading it for so many reasons. I'll ... Read more
Snow day, no doctor's appointment, Happy Mardi Gras
A big thank you to the folks who posted on my blog yesterday. Your support means a lot.
It snowed last night and it's snowing today, so my appointment with my doctor is now next week.
Not feeling very positive or motivated or insp... Read more
I have an appointment to see my Primary Care physician tomorrow and I'm sitting here dreading it to the point that I'm physically ill.
With Fibro and M.E., there is a lot of pain. Normal stuff like getting dressed in street clothes, get... Read more
You know, it's said that you don't get more than you can handle. I call shenanigans on that.
Over the past 4 months there have been deaths of friends and old classmates, extreme medical emergencies with family, emotional trauma in relation... Read more
Addiction, Acceptance, Abstinence
I'm not very good at this lately.
In spite of not one but TWO therapists, all of the reading, all of the information, all of the knowledge I possess about nutrition, exercise, metabolism, weight loss, yadda yadda yadda, I cannot seem to g... Read more
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Another binge and shame and tears
This is so hard.
I'm disgusted, frustrated, ashamed, angry.
I don't even know what to say anymore that I haven't said a million times already.
I would give anything to get rid of this. Every minute I'm awake is about this a... Read more