Well I have gotten through the second week without alcohol. But haven't eaten very healthy. And that isn't helping my overall well being. The fatigueness is so intense, I've never felt so dragged down. Weakness in my whole body, could sleep 24 h... Read more
Today is day 7 of my sobriety. I feel alright, despite working two noc shifts at the hopsital this weekend and getting little sleep today cause I had to wake up and finish my homework. But alcohol is not my excuse for anything right now. I feel ... Read more
Our struggles, mistakes, flaws... are what's defines us.
Hi all, I finally feel like I'm on the path of getting partially back on track in life. This last month has been a little rocky. Recently had issues at one of my jobs, so left and started this week at another, except different hours so I'm adjus... Read more
News is news... whether it's good or bad.
So, after today it will be 4 days being sober. Woopie. ha. It hasn't been easy. And for a few reasons.
Stress gets the best of me. So, when I'm not drinking, I replace it with this munchie attack. I don't know which is worse.... But, I've don... Read more
Real Talk: drinking, health, vent sesh
let it all out, hold self accountable. realisticly showing oneself.... Read more
Instead of tightening the wheels, I must have broke them off the whole wagon...
What the xxxxx!!!
I went fifty days of no drinking.... and can't get passed a day now. This won't help speed up my weightloss. It's been proven. When I don't drink I practically start stripping pounds off me. I'm an alcoholic. It's really dif... Read more
Tightening the wheels on my wagon....
Maybe then I won't fall off again. Time and time again my spark friends, co workers, family, etc, have heard me say, countless times, how I am going to try and stop drinking. Well, friends, I'm saying it again. I made it 50 days last time, and t... Read more
You haven't failed, til you give up and don't care anymore...
One of my greatest strengths I have found in myself is having the ability to admit my faults. I have a alcohol problem, I have a addiction to food, I get word vomit and can be a real bitch at times when voicing my feelings, I interrupt people, ... Read more
The bathing suit I want to buy in May!
This is what I want to wear this summer! The chic in the picture is not how skinny I want to be of course. I'm a curvy girl! But I love this bathing suit, and think I will look nice in it by June! What do you think?! I'm excited! It's a little p... Read more
A new idea, with a different twist.
So, I am someone who when weight is lost I see it on the scale and the mirror. I enjoy seeing numbers go down. But for this month of February, instead of focusing on my direct weightloss on the scale, I'd like to get go down a pant size as well.... Read more
The reason why...
I can try to go around it a million times, but I know the reason why I feel like this today, yesterday, this weekend. I've been drinking again. I went about 50 days without alcohol, and here I am once again, guilty as all hell. I'm retaining wat... Read more
I was a dancer. NO, I am a dancer.
For those of you who don't know me too well, I was a ballet dancer from age 11 to about 17. I performed in many ballets, including; The Nutcracker, The Christmas Carol, Enchanted Forest, etc.
I was an elegant dancer... I cant toot my own horn... Read more
Light switch seems to have turned off...
Well, I'm here. But not. I feel like a bobble head on someone's dashboard. Minus the hawaiin skirt and the ukalele. I'm a little cloudy, I am overly agitated. Stress could be playing a part. I'm still eating okay, and losing weight, but I've mad... Read more
So, after alot of thinking, I have suddenly realized I have a very huge interest in something I didn't quite understand before. I want to be buff. And when I say that, I kinda mean it. Not like veins popping out of my arms and neck buff, but yes... Read more
Where I was, Where I am, Where I want to be...
Some people live in the past, some people settle for what is present, some extend their arms out reaching for more. That's me, I expect more out of life and myself. I know I can live an amazing life, I know I can be the best person I've ever bee... Read more